I have made the decision that my marriage has to end. My husband has had a serious drug addiction the majority of our 12 years together, he had treatment but it just doesn't work every few months he uses drugs and thinks he can get away with it, his excuse is usually that the kids are playing up or I am not showing him enough affection. He doesn't work, I work and have a professional job so earn enough to keep us afloat.
I found out he was using again last week, we had been arguing and had separated for some space for a few days, he insisted I removed my wedding ring but then I couldn't find it once I thought things were ok, turns out he pawned it to buy drugs, he also stole 20 quid from our boys birthday money and my other son has told me tonight that he has taken 3 of his PlayStation games. He steals from us all, my eldest son nearly lost his watch I bought him for Christmas because he pawned that so I had to buy it back.
I have forgiven him so many times and now I just feel enough is enough. I am getting some support from a family drug worker and she I'd making me realise I don't have to live with this. The problem is I don't know how often will cope with 4 children, a house, and working and knowing he will go off the rails and cause more problems, I don't want the boys having to deal with him like that. I have contemplated phoning social services for help but I am scared of the stigma and the schools and everyone finding out.
I know after all this time he will never change, I need to put myself and my boys first. But at the same time I am terrified.