I need help because it is eating me up.
Ex has his own company. Separated three years ago: divorce took two years. I missed out on legal aid so had to represent myself with advice/Barristers when I was able.
All the money was in the company and the judges kept saying that they couldn't do anything about it. DH was clever: spent tens of thousands on lawyers and accountants.
I got enough for a deposit on a house, (with a massive mortgage!) and half the pensions, but that's all. Every month is a struggle: I work FT.
DH has two houses, one he is landlord for. He works two days a week. Takes the children on exotic holidays. They have huge bedrooms and lots of land and pets. Lovely cars - cleaners, gardeners, cooks for parties!
I can't even take them on holiday - never have been able to. He doesn't pay any maintenance (we have the children 50-50).
I feel so bitter that it is so unfair. When we met 20 years ago I earned more than him, but gave it up to raise the children and support his career. Now I earn less than I earned when we met and work 50 hours a week and it isn't ever going to end. He has a lovely life and provides everything for them. Sometimes I feel like I've lost it all.
I'm in a committed relationship - so I've moved on - but the difference in my lifestyle with DH is making me so bitter. How can I move on from this without turning into a bitter old woman?! Help!