Its been a long time coming but its over. He has left and is on his way back to Greece. The son has gone with him 
but I have put no pressure. He is 17 so he needs to do what he thinks is right. I have closed my facebook down as I really don't want to talk with anyone at the moment.
I have spent yesterday and today tidying and making the house mine again and putting up the tree.
My youngest who is with me is upset and missing them and I am finding it hard to deal with that as I just want to feel relieved that its over but feel guilt that I am hurting her. All 3 of the kids are hurting and while I know that I am doing the right thing the guilt for breaking up the family is horrid.
Other than that there is nothing, I thought I might have been more excited for the next step or relieved that I took control. But there us just nothing.