Does anyone struggle with food/weight/diabetic control

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Hi,
Just looking for others experience. T1 for almost 25 years and I am in a constant cycle of trying to balance control and my weight.
I have been aware a I have disordered eating for many years. I was never taught self regulation in any aspect of life (whole other thread) and make terrible food choices and never encouraged to exercise.
About a year and a half ago something clicked in me and I totally dropped carbs, had great control and decent about of weight but have never been able to maintain anything now control is rubbish again and weight creeping back up quickly.

I just desperately want to eat "normally" but I don't even really know what that is. I want to make good food choices but can't seem to regulate this to be consistent for any long periods of time.

How do other type 1s manage?

I don't really manage- find it really tough.

I've only been diagnosed about 3 years. I was trying to lose baby weight when I was diagnosed. List quite a lot as you'd expect but I've put it all on and more since having second baby.

I struggle with food like you explained, but mainly for me, in the past I've always used exercise as a way to keep my weight in check. That's so much harder with diabetes when you're constantly correcting lows or making sure you've got enough carbs on board to workout.

Have you ever had any sort of counselling? From what you’ve described you may benefit from getting your head in the right place first and learn some tactics to help keep you motivated.

It is really hard and diabetic burnout is a real thing. Sometimes we need someone to help us deal with that.

Thanks for your responses.

I was doing a spinning class until the pandemic started so I was managing to be active and manage my levels ok.

I guess my problem really is sugar addiction which I guess is understandable as we will unless so so careful/rigid have sugar on board. I have been focused the last few weeks, feel ok about it all but I know a day will come where I think sod it and just fall of the wagon.

A councillor has been suggested but I have used one for other reasons not found them helpful at all.
I often think that even without diabetes I would have disordered eating anyway and the diabetes over complicates it hugely.

I'm sorry you find it hard, I hope it helps you that you're not the only one though. I have a internal guilt that I must be the worst diabetic in the world!