So here's the situation. Me and my ex partner (B) have been together for nearly 7 years. She had 2 children when we met (H & C) and we had our own (K).
The relationship between B and myself hasn't been perfect for a long time following an incident of DV, trust issues and stress dominating the household.
We've split up on numerous occasions and the kids have seen me have to leave the house.
Recently, H & C went to school and made an allegation that I had been hitting them which has now resulted in me having to leave the family home and see SS involved.
This has led to my mental health spiral out of control so much that I found myself in a situation where I had spent over an hour on the phone to Samaritans.
While I was a child I was a victim of Physical and Emotional abuse by my father which involved SS but they had failed to help me.
The allegations against me are false and I am trying my hardest to think of ways that I can prove my innocence.
I have always had a negative view of SS from my childhood that i just can't shift regardless of how systems change, I just feel an enormous amount of betrayal and biase with SS.
I am scared that I won't be able to see the children again and i don't know what to do anymore. I know I am not perfect and I know that I have many issues that instead of dealing with them I keep them inside and hope it goes away. But I could never bring myself to think that I could put them children through any pain. I love them.
Has anyone got any advice for me because my life is being ripped apart and I really cannot take anymore.