Second guessing if reporting was the right thing

[Alwayschillyatnight]

Spent the night with an old old friend who i trusted. Was woken by him putting his hand where it shouldn't be and saying no, then dozing off and it happening again.

This happened four or five times, with me falling asleep again to some extent due to some medication I'm on making me very sleepy. I felt trapped by him and my own body and anxious to get away.

In the morning I played it of as if I was ill and left ASAP. I reported it once I'd had a chance to consider it but I am stacked with doubts and worries that it'll be me in the bum, he'll be vindictive when he finds out, that I've over reacted, yet it really wasn't ok and if any of my friends had told me the situation happened to them I'd feel very clearly that they'd been assaulted, so why doesn't it feel clear to me?

You did the right thing, there’s a good chance he’s done this before or worse. You’re second guessing because you don’t know what the outcome may be and you thought the person was a friend. Well done for standing up for yourself.

Sending support OP.
It might never be prosecuted but it’s better that you stand up for yourself than not. That will help the healing.
I’m sorry he was such a prick and perhaps consider counselling for yourself.

I already have a therapist and ive let her know. So I guess we'll just add it to the stack of crap im working through.

I am feeling so tearful and anxious since I reported though. Like it's made it real or more of a thing.