Late last year I faced up to the fact that I was raped by a group of men I knew when unconscious. Its something I had suppressed for years (almost 20 years). I went to a rape counselling service after a couple of months building up to telling my husband.
The initial counselling assessment was helpful and we discussed reporting to the police. No pressure was put on me but i decided to report it as a number of men were involved and who knows what they've done since.
I got as far as completing the form that goes to the police SARC unit and the only unknown was the exact date it took place.
I thought I might be able to work it out but it was so long ago, I have no diary/calendar. So my form is in limbo waiting for a date. Im waiting for counselling to start, long waiting list.
I was hoping not to have to tell my family, but it looks like this is the only way to follow through with the report. Either that or asking friends who were around at the time.
I understand why the date is important, of course. Im under no illusions that the men would be charged with my rape due to circumstances at the time & time that has passed. But I said i could handle being a witness if any of them were charged with another sex assault.
I dont know what Im posting for really, I just need to get on with talking to people about the date. Tell me to be strong. Im not sure I can handle lying to friends and family, but the truth is harder.