I am just coming in here really as I don't know where to start. I literally cannot deal with the way I am I feel like life is getting the better of me. I want a job but people around me say I think you need to get better. I feel okay I just have thought spinning in my head and just want to do something or active. On top of all of this I want to look nice and dress nice and have the best of things and drive but how am I suppose to start if if I keep putting myself down. I feel like I'm not good enough and I'm trying to stop drinking also which I'm doing so well at. I just want to be the best I can be and I'm really struggling with how to deal with all my emotions and not achieving what I want and I don't know where to start