I am really struggling right now. I've had long Covid since September last year. I have a very stressful but well paying job but the longer this goes on, the more I am not coping.
Ideally I would like 3-6 months off work to see if I can recover but I can't get that from work so I would like to resign.
The problem is I'm in my 50s and it will be difficult to get another role. There are lots of redundancies in my field at the moment. If I quit, I have to be prepared that I won't get another role and also I may never be well enough.
Critical insurance won't pay out for long covid so there's no insurance that would cover me. I have some savings that would pay the bills for approx 2 years and if I wasn't working after that, I would have to sell my house.
The main issue is dp. He runs his own business and he's trying to raise some money for it to expand at the moment. If he's successful, then all is good and he would, for the first time, have to support me. We've only been seeing each other for 5 years but for most of our relationship I have paid the lion's share of things but understandably because I earn loads more than him.
I am trying to speak to dp about this and he just shuts down the conversation again. I've just tried again now and he's said 'go back to your insurance and try again, you need to be sure they won't pay'. But I am sure. I've checked everything. And when I say that he says go back and check with your boss again. Just take a few weeks off. But a few weeks is not going to fix this.
It's so hard to explain because some days I look ok but I'm really not. He is doing everything he can to help me recover - he's taken over he dog walking, cooking etc and he lets me rest as much as possible but work is killing me and I feel that a long break might just be the break I'm looking for