Crippling Anxiety

[HolidayHun2020]

Hi,

I tested positive for covid 10 days ago and I have just tested negative! Since around day 4 I’ve had horrendous crippling anxiety/depression - I’m really teetering on the edge of feeling a bit suicidal as I can’t bear the feeling of self loathing and that there is zero joy in the world, everything feels hard and I feel alone - even though I’m clearly not responding to anyone and won’t really engage with my husband because I just don’t have the energy. I’ve also got really intense nausea, fatigue and dizziness - the thought that this might be forever is terrifying me. I have a small baby so I’m really trying to fight these feelings but I just want to lie there all day and stare in to space.

anyone else feel like this and does it go away?

How old is your baby OP.

Could it be that covid has triggered post natal anxiety.

I suffer from that and it sounds as you describe.

I had dd1 after fifteen years of infertility and when she arrived I felt like a bus of anxiety had driven into me.

There is a phenomenon called covid psychosis and coupled with a baby (thinking pnd) as well as the fact any bout of illness can trigger a depressive episode I would really encourage you to contact 111 today and tell your partner exactly what you’ve said here.

the good news is that it’s absolutely recoverable but you do need to ask for the help and support that you need. Please don’t hang about feeling so dreadful

If you feel suicidal call your gp op, not to minimise this though but I felt the same as you. I just posted in another thread about covid and anxiety.

I don’t want you to take this as gospel as others have mentioned PND and it’s best your gp checks you over but a lot of people are reporting heightened anxiety during the timeframe you mentioned, in my own experience it was like the dread described in sepsis patients and I think it’s due to it being a manifestation emotionally of what’s going on, fatigue and fighting a pretty rough virus.

It’s important to rest and sleep and hydrate and all the usual, can anyone help out so you can sleep a bit more?

I hope you feel better soon. I felt overwhelmed with dread and strange depression and I’m ok now. Please get advice from your gp though.

I still feel some fatigue and intermittent smell changes but I’m a million times better.

Also thinking you will be like this forever will be heightening the anxiety and hopelessness, pease take things in bite size, so even if you have to think 5 minutes at a time if possible.