Anyone else struggling to get past the last two years?

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Now that it’s coming up to two years since this all started, I’ve realised I STILL haven’t processed any of it properly.

I don’t really know how to put into words how I feel- it’s almost like a part of me is always going to be waiting for someone in March 2020 to tell me it’s all fine, the pandemic is over now, we don’t need to have a lockdown. I guess I’m just struggling to move past it mentally? I find myself thinking back to the early days of the pandemic a lot and I think it’s because my brain is still trying to process it all.

I also had an unplanned pregnancy which started in the first lockdown- DD is 1 now- and I found a lot of that pregnancy v stressful trying to avoid covid, not to mention the birth itself being less than pleasant partly due to covid rules. I think I’ve maybe got a bit of unresolved trauma or something around this too.

I’m pretty much fine day to day, happy to be getting out and doing things again.Very grateful to still have my job. In fact there’s such a lot I have to be grateful for and I know that many people have suffered horribly in many different ways over the last two years. But I just cannot stop rehashing it all in my head?! Please tell me that I’m not crazy and that I will eventually be able to ‘move on’

You're not alone OP, I feel the same.

Like a PP the hardest bit for me is my children, before and now. Timehop reminds me how tiny they were, but at such important stages of their development - my two were 4 and 1. They are now 6 and almost 3. My eldest is traumatised at the mention of a covid test because they've had so many. I just hope it doesn't have long term affects on them, but how can it not?

I just haven't got over it and don't think I will.my husband died unexpectedly in late Dec 2019 and I have not been able to get over this happening as lockdown followed swiftly afterwards and I couldn't grieve with my family,those two years will be forever missing in my life.

@HeronLanyon

My personal timeline has gone tits up. I had to work out an ‘18 month ago’ scenario and it took ages to work out where that took me back to. It’s often as if 2021 just didn’t happen at all. I also lost both parents in the year before all of this and I know my own grieving process became kind of disrupted /mixed in with it all. Think I had massive overreaction when it all started

As though 2021 didn't happen at all. It's all such a long line of nothingness I can't work any of it out I was trying to do my tax return and work out wtf happened when?!

Just sending everyone a massive hug, don't care that it's not mumsnetty!

It's shit, so shit. Everyone (except those in charge it seems) and those oddballs that seem to have enjoyed the pandemic, are trying to pick up the pieces of their lives. Everything, absolutely everything has been affected by this damn virus and IMO the measures were OTT, clearly the government thought so too else why would they be happy to party whilst forcing the rest of us into isolation.

As if trying to recover from the past 2 years wasn't hard enough, we find that the powers that be, were laughing at us all along whilst they cracked on with their lives 😞

Sending best wishes and solidarity to everyone who feels the same as me. I feel particularly awful for those who have long covid or have had a bereavement throughout this time, I can’t even imagine.

@AlexandraEiffel thanks for the advice- I do think it would help to talk about it with someone and will look into this.

I hope nobody was upset by my wording, just to clarify when I say ‘move on’ I really just mean process my own experience, in particular March 2020- Jan 2021. I fully appreciate that the pandemic isn’t over and that some people are still living with long covid / grieving loved ones.

@hivemindneeded thank you so much, your words are very kind. I would love to completely offload here but the viewpoints and discussions on here are very polarised sometimes and I worry about offending people or getting into an argument about restrictions or vaccines etc etc etc. Maybe this thread will be a safe space 🤞 so sorry about your dad, and I hope things improve for your DS

@Armpittits hope you feel better soon! I had it in October, got off lightly but was exhausted for weeks!

@Harlequin1088 I’m so sorry you had to go through that. The effects of restrictions on pregnant women and in particular on those going through a miscarriage are, I think, one of the worst things to have come out of all of this. I didn’t go through anything anywhere near as awful as you, but I could write a whole other post about my experience postpartum in the hospital without my partner. Wishing you all the best for this pregnancy 💕

@loloballlolo I’m definitely getting better at avoiding the news! This really does help!

@Babdoc I really hope your health improves and I agree, looking forward is my goal.

@abigailsnan so sorry for your loss