Full of anxiety - waking up shaking and trembling

[Mustbeanotherworld]

I’m having what I guess are night terrors or nocturnal panic attacks.
I’m waking up in the night feeling disorientated, physically shaking, trembling and heart racing.

All day long I feel anxious and panicky. I was diagnosed with ASD and ADHD. I also have bad anxiety thrown into the mix and had PND , which I don’t think I’m fully over now my son is 3.

All my coping mechanisms , such as face to face mental health groups came back over the summer, I felt better than I had pre 2020. Now it looks likely they’ll be going back into zoom again. My ASD means I really struggle with zoom as I don’t know who is talking to me and I can’t recognise social cues unless I’m with people in their physical presence.
I also feel totally lonely and lost.
My family don’t live nearby so we were going to stay with them for a week from 30th December, but doesn’t look likely to happen now.
I’m scared of my mental health sliding to how it was in 2020, I was suicidal for the first time. It’s starting to creep back in now and all the uncertainty and inability to plan is making things so much worse.

So sorry to read this.

This positive thing is that you know what works/helps you.
Those things will come back!

Would others from the group consider meeting outside?

So sorry you are feeling like this. Don't change your plans to go to stay with your family. Whatever happens you need their support and this will give you a focus to get through until the 30th.