@Thewholeshackshimmy I was very much like you- booked and cancelled- drive to the vaccination centre and could go in. Each day was a huge burden- I kept reading about the vaccines, and made appointments with the gp- which frankly was useless. I kept turning to mumsnet for support only to encounter some horrid comments and in one earlier posts one even called me an anti vaxxer!
This is what I did- I stopped reading and fact finding- came off all social media as much as possible. Didn’t book it as I would back off - one morning husband and I decided to drive to a walk in centres to check out- I chose one in an hospital- for me the sombre atmosphere of a hospital helped as supposed to a more laid back community centre-
I told the lady in the entrance that I was nervous and pretty much broke down- they took me inside and each step I was a mess but I did progress - I had Pfizer
I’m 40 so you can understand this whole pressure was driving me nuts from when we were called.
All I’ll say is pleas don’t feel bad about how you feel- no point in history have any human being been under so much pressure to get a vaccine- it’s all around from morning until night- one day AZ is good, another day Pfizer is good, one day AZ causes issues, another day Pfizer causes issues…it’s endless
Some find it hard to cope- and you are one if them. Hope you get to a pint to do what you are comfortable with-
If you do get the vaccine please don’t read anything about side effects etc either- that’s another thing which will drive you up the wall. If you feel that you need something checked do it via a real life medical professional
Hope this helps.