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Booked the vaccination but couldn’t sleep last night

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QuietBatPeople1 · 19/05/2021 08:56

Anyone else like me? I have finally booked the dreaded thing. But I couldn’t sleep at all last night. There was a feeling that I will not make it - blood clot/anaphylactic shock whatever that might be. It’s next week so feel I only have a few days to live..thought it’s the initial wobble but no feel pretty much the same. I was planning to place an order online for some stuff but mentally I just cannot bring myself to do it today morning- there is a voice which keeps saying what’s the point you are not going to be here are you?

I’m 40-just turned, and guess would be injected with AZ.

Atleast I’ve taken the 1st step - but unfortunately I’m struggling to see this as the amazing magic bullet- rather the opposite

I cried when my daughter said goodbye before going to school as it felt that I don’t have a long time to spend with her.

Yes- Covid is worse
No- I haven’t had the pill ever, the clots are very different
No- I’m not a troll
No- I am not an anti vaxxer
No- I have no one to talk to irl- my family are in a country currently being ravaged by corona- and most likely my dad will have to undergo a heart surgery in the next week so don’t want to trouble mum with my issues
Yes- I am getting help for my anxiety but nothing is helping today

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FelicityElectricity · 19/05/2021 09:06

Could you postpone it? It sounds like you need some time to manage your health anxiety? Perfectly natural to feel worried about the vaccination but it sounds like you are suffering with the anxiety over it all. I hope you feel better soon. Can you talk to a health professional who can go through the risks with you? Would you feel better if it was a different type of covid vaccine?

Mindymomo · 19/05/2021 09:12

I am older than you, but felt the same and was convinced I would be laid up in bed for a few days feeling ill, but in fact I had zero effects and if I hadn’t seen the needle go in, I would have doubted I had it.

daytimeknitter · 19/05/2021 09:12

You don't have to have it OP.

malikaqi · 19/05/2021 09:16

This is anxiety talking. Millions of people have had the vaccination with no serious side effects. Give yourself permission to feel nervous but remind yourself we are in a global
Pandemic and you are lucky enough to live in a country with free access to a vaccine that saves lives. Or decide not to have it. Just don't hurt yourself by expending time worrying about your decision.

Babdoc · 19/05/2021 09:17

OP, your chance of dying from Covid is several orders of magnitude higher than dying from the vaccine.
Why not be bloody grateful to the scientists who developed this, and the volunteers staffing the vaccine hubs, for reducing the risk to your health and survival, instead of tormenting yourself with completely disproportionate fears?

amicissimma · 19/05/2021 09:40

I think that if you put it off you will prove to yourself that you didn't have it and were OK (provided you don't get Covid!), so it will make it even harder to have it. The longer you wait the more it will build up. And the internet will wind you up even more.

I think you should go along for your vaccine and talk to the staff there. After thousands of jabs they know what they are talking about. I volunteer in one and everyone is really sympathetic and will let you talk your fears through as much as you feel you need. A lot of people report feeling nervous. We had one lady who ended up crying and shouting out with anxiety. The overwhelming response from everyone there, including the people waiting in the queue was 'good for her for coming despite her fears.' She had her vaccination and came out with a broad grin!

And when you come out you will have done two things:

overcome your anxiety
taken a step to protect you and those around you from this horrid disease.

MRex · 19/05/2021 10:05

How about going along but not having it OP? You can go to see what the process is like and chat to someone about it. Then just in case you feel ready you can have the jab straight away, and if not you can leave without it. You can also ask to wait in case of anaphylaxis, so that you know you'll get treated immediately and be ok, worst case just stand outside by the queue for 15 minutes afterwards so you're nearby. If you aren't ready for the jab on the day then you can book again another time when you are ready.

GoddessKali · 19/05/2021 10:08

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MRex · 19/05/2021 10:18

You are talking to someone who has very severe anxiety @GoddessKali, and trying to frighten her. I see why you chose your name at least, but it really isn't funny, it's evil.

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QuietBatPeople1 · 19/05/2021 10:22

@daytimeknitter - I’m being asked to come to work so feel that I HAVE to have it

@GoddessKali - yes we will never know - I’m not sure at all. I will suffer until next Wednesday...

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GoddessKali · 19/05/2021 10:23

@MRex people need to know the real risks and listen to their intuition.

We are being hounded and pressured into getting something many people don’t want. If it was a relationship you would be told to listen to your gut reaction.

If the OP isn’t 💯 sure then they shouldn’t have it done and people should be ashamed of themselves if they try to persuade someone to.

There are some very adverse side effects including death - it’s a real risk that people should be aware of.

Frequentflier · 19/05/2021 10:25

I recognise you from my thread yesterday:) And we are from the same country. Would it help you to know that by now, over 60 of my relatives in that country have already taken the jab with no side effects? We are a family of doctors. And as I said, some got covid-bcos they are seeing so many patients per day-but they have had very mild infections. Some were in their 70s and 80s and still survived!

Can you talk to your GP? Taking the shot might mean 3 weeks of anxiety at the most, but not taking it might mean months of it.:)

Frequentflier · 19/05/2021 10:30

I see you are going back to the office. My husband will be returning to the office soon, and I sleep so well at night knowing he has had both shots. Given our ethnicity ( hidden diabetes, genetic heart disease) it is better to have it. But you know all that, I guess. Can you take someone with you?

ThelmaDinkley · 19/05/2021 10:31

All first vaccinations now will be Pfizer or Moderna. AZ is only being used for second doses now.

Toty · 19/05/2021 10:50

Some were in their 70s and 80s and still survived!

Not surprising since most unvaccinated 80yr olds also survived covid, its not a death sentence for the majority, even for the very elderly survival rates are around 80% unvaccinated.

Frequentflier · 19/05/2021 10:52

@Toty not in my country:) survival rates are very poor.

siestalady · 19/05/2021 11:00

[quote GoddessKali]@MRex people need to know the real risks and listen to their intuition.

We are being hounded and pressured into getting something many people don’t want. If it was a relationship you would be told to listen to your gut reaction.

If the OP isn’t 💯 sure then they shouldn’t have it done and people should be ashamed of themselves if they try to persuade someone to.

There are some very adverse side effects including death - it’s a real risk that people should be aware of.[/quote]
Imagine if everyone took this attitude? We're being hounded and pressured because frankly, vaccination is the only way out of this mess. Or would you prefer to live this half-life for the rest of forever?

There are potential adverse side effects to every medicine. There are potential adverse side effects to getting out of bed in the morning. The likelihood of anything bad happening to you from your vaccine is miniscule. Just get the vaccine OP! Dont overthink it.

mummymummymummummum · 19/05/2021 11:17

Hi @QuietBatPeople1 I have done some volunteering at a vaccine centres. You are not alone in your concerns! We have lots of people in with lots of different concerns (side affects, phobias etc). I recommend attending your appointment, but talk to the staff there about your worries. They talk you through the side affects as standard, but are really really good at reassuring people who are worried and addressing concerns.

QuietLurker · 19/05/2021 11:18

Hi OP, I am also just turned 40 and got my vaccine yesterday - it was moderna for all first doses where I went so I think it's true that most of the AZ is being reserved for second doses now. If you're worried about anaphylaxis, you're asked to sit and wait for 15 minutes after you've had your jab precisely so they can help you if anything like that happens (which is very rare). I really do sympathise as I was also very anxious but I feel very relieved now I've got it over with. As usual, the worry and anticipation was worse than the event.

Nietzschethehiker · 19/05/2021 11:23

If it reassures even a little bit OP. I am the same age as you and have had both Vaccinations and both were AZ and I am absolutely fine. Felt fluey after the first and had my second last week and absolutely no side effects.

I also have a tendency to be the person that the reaction will happen to (no particular reason I just assume my body is a bit of a drama queen and likes the attention really) I've circled the drain in the most bizzarre circumstances (I'm not joking I really have) and I'm happily pootling around annoying my DP.

Of course noone can tell you anyone is immune to issues but thought it might help to hear a positive experience. I had Covid early on last year in the first lockdown. The vaccine was fine for me.

Beamur · 19/05/2021 11:28

I felt much more nervous about this than I expected but went through with it anyway. Statistically it's safe enough. Really bad side effects are possible but the likelihood of it being you is small.
I felt a bit unwell for 24 hours afterwards. Once I fully recovered and didn't die of blood clots the relief of feeling safer from catching Covid has been immense.
Good luck & I virtual hand hold from me.

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QuietBatPeople1 · 19/05/2021 11:37

Thank you @mummymummymummummum

It took me a whole lot of effort to book the vaccine. But I will be honest this doesn’t feel right at all. I understand Covid will be worse but don’t feel any comfort in this vaccine either.

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QuietBatPeople1 · 19/05/2021 11:42

@Beamur this is what I am stewing in a sense- so basically I take this jab- wait to get an anaphylactic reaction (potential)

If I get it - might die or not

If I don’t - okay passed the first hurdle

Then wait for 28 days - counting down first 4/5 days as high risk- then up to day 14 as medium and potentially after that as low? But I know of someone who had a clot almost a month after..so basically a month of agonising over this.

If nothing happens - well done you are one step closer to safety. Welcome to second jab

Tell me how this compares with a medicine? If I take a medicine- I might have a reaction immediately if not the side effects are not life threatening and the medics can be altered

I take this jab but can potentially die within a month but I should just skip along happily to have it...I just cannot understand that.

Maybe it’s my anxiety but doesn’t feel right.

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FloraFauna27 · 19/05/2021 11:45

Well done you for booking it! That was such a huge hurdle to jump.

You will be fine OP. I look forward to getting a nice update from you next week to say you’ve had it

I get the anxiety, I totally do. I feel the same due to things that have happened in my family. But we can do this! Think how great we will feel after.

FloraFauna27 · 19/05/2021 11:47

By the way my brother has just turned 40 and got the Pfizer, it isn’t guaranteed to be AZ.

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