Just spent the day crying

[Magschoice]

I’m fortunate that I still have a job after all this but I’m just so bloody lonely.

I can’t afford to move out of my tiny flat now because I likely need a 15% deposit and can’t afford the mortgage that comes with a 10% deposit. I have saved for so long to try and get to that point and then covid changed all the rules.

I’ve been living on my own since last June. I’ve hardly any contact with friends and family have all been unwell so they’re staying away until vaccinated.

I am just so so fed up now. My mental health is at an all time low and struggling to see what the point in going on is. This is just never ending. I’ve sat all day and cried I just can’t console myself with any positivity

So sorry to hear of your troubles.

Most of us are going through similar during these awful times, so if it is any consolation, you are not alone in that department. It is like a bereavement for our former and future lives.

What exactly is the issue here? Is it that you cannot afford to buy something bigger or anything at all now?

It sounds harsh, but make your little flat as nice as you can, buy some things for it that will make you happy, a picture, new bedding etc.

Sit tight and make your space as nice as you can for YOU now and be glad that you have what you need (not want) for now.

I wish you well. Things will change soon, we all have had to give up this and that and you will adapt. Count your current blessings for now.

It’s shit but it’s ending.

Hang in there.

Is there no one you can meet up with at all outside for a walk? Will anyone break the rules? Maybe message first and see if they will. Most people
I speak too are prepared to if their MH is suffering. You need human contact not a new bloody bed sheet!!

It’s ok to feel like this. Also, please phone gp if you are feeling really low. I am currently on beta blockers as I was not coping with anxiety due to covid/lockdown/work etc. You can also try nhs talking therapies which is free and does not require gp referral. There is a glimmer of hope at the end of this tunnel of shit we are currently in. This will pass, just hold on for a bit longer. You are not alone in feeling like this.