Really struggling

[Heatheronthehill]

I’m finding this lockdown so hard now. I know it’s for the best and all the rest of it. But I still feel so lonely and I’ve really had enough.
I have a long distance partner who I can’t go and see because we’re not allowed to travel. He’s 170 miles away from me. We are planning to meet halfway between our two areas outdoors at the start of March. You’re allowed to meet one person outdoors at the moment, I know non essential travel isn’t strictly allowed, but I feel this is essential as I’m starting to feel suicidal. We’re doing such a low risk activity by meeting outdoors and we’ve chosen a meeting point that’s very deserted and remote, so away from other people.
Oh and we can’t form a bubble because he is in a house share.
I have a 2 year old son to manage everyday too and its so hard when all I want is to stay in bed all day long.

I’ve not seen him since December as an add on. So the lack of physical contact is really getting to me.

But if you're a single parent you surely can bubble with him? Although the distance is a problem of course.

If you're feeling low yes, I'd say see him, but also have you got any medical/MH support? Have you spoken to your GP? Maybe ring a helpline. I know two people working in our county mental health hub and they're both fab. You are definitely not alone @Heatheronthehill.

You might want to move this thread to the Lone Parents section, btw.