After months of not seeing my Nan I went to see her yesterday. Now I fully expect to be flamed for this but at this particular moment I can’t help but be grateful I got to see her. Today she had a stroke! We have no idea how this will effect her as it’s different with everyone but there is a good chance her speech won’t return so yesterday might have been the last fully verbal conversation I’ll have with her. I’m absolutely gutted as is my dad, mum, sister, aunts/uncles grandkids etc. I’d stuck to the rules 100% throughout this horrible 12 months and I’d never caved before when either set of my grandparents have asked me to go see them, however yesterday I felt compelled to go see her and despite the small risks (both of us have been vaccinated and we kept our distance) to both of us I’m happy that I got to see her. She’s now in our local hospital alone with no family and I can’t help but feel sad. I know covid is real, I know how serious it is and how devastating it has been for many families, but it’s made me realise just how much we have sacrificed not seeing family members, and emphasised the fact that maybe we need to weigh up the risks of covid against socially distancing from vulnerable relatives who may not have much time left.