Today covid hit me. Mentally. I’ve lived it for so long now, I work full time as a frontline NHS worker so have been dealing with it everyday for so long. I’ve lost family members and a friend to Covid. I’m a single parent having to help with Yr 10 school work when I’m home in the evening (exdp does see dc). I do have an adult dc who lives with me but they Autism and does not like to chit chat or won’t accept a hug. Because my eldest lives with me, I’m not allowed a support bubble. I haven’t seen my parents properly face to face since early October. This evening I decided to have a takeaway so was waiting outside and my df just happened to walk past for his excersize. I didn’t realise just how much I miss seeing my parents in person. I’ve never been a parent hugger but I wanted to just rush and hug him. We stood and talked while we waited for the food. But it’s so hard. I’m just so so so done and tired with it all now.
Is there anyone else feeling like this now?
I’m trying to stop my youngest ds from becoming depressed and down, they miss school and friends so much (I still want them home safe obv), I want to meet my parents and friends out for lunch. And I’m fed up with the anti-covid brigade whose making our lives so much worse by still socialising, not social distancing and creating extra work for us at work (other hospitals are full and patients are being sent to us when we had capacity.. patients who openly admitted to having big family gatherings and refusing to wear masks)
I’m just venting really. It’s just 