Panic attacks

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I haven't really over through this lockdown situation too much. I haven't really left the house, got shops delivered etc etc and now I'm finding it hard to leave the house. 😞 and the thought of leaving the house terrifies me. Not because of catching covid but I guess joining the real world I was so used to!!! I use to take my DS anywhere and everywhere! To every baby class, soft play, the sealife centre, our for meals. We'd walk round town for hours and go shopping and today I had to go to the post office and the thought of being out in public made me physically shake. I don't know why! I didn't end up going and now I feel like a prisoner in my own body. I know we can't do anything yet but the thought makes me feel sick for when we can! The thought of getting ready for a night out and being social. And I'm not a shy person with no history of suffering mental health or social anxiety. Does anyone else feel this way?! 😭😭

Anyone?

Think we’ve gradually adjusted to a different way of living, and it’ll be a gradual adjustment to live more socially again. However, I’m not sure I ‘like’ people anymore - and I feel quite content to live my introverted lifestyle.

This was one of things I thought would happen to many people as a result of lockdown. Please start taking baby steps to get out of the house as soon as you can and go things that are open then by the time the lockdown is eased it won’t feel so stressful for you. It’s really easy to become institutionalised without realising it and so many people have just become recluses in their own homes. Just try each day to do something small outside of the house and build it up. Once you get over the fear it’s actually really nice to be out and about (following the rules before anyone starts).

Phew I'm glad you don't think I'm crazy! I thought I'd be told to get a grip which to be fair I deserve but yes thank you, I'm going to try and go for a walk in our local park tomorrow and tackle human interaction on Friday (the post office, I really need to go lol)
The thought of going for a meal with friends or a bar makes me feel ill yet before all this happened that was my favourite thing to do 😅😅