I’ve cracked!!

[Done2021]

Name change as I’ll prob get told I’m being pathetic!!
My worse fear of the whole shit show (on a personal level I know others have had worse) I’m now in week 2 of isolation with my partner and our 2 and 3 year old DC we all have covid although you wouldn’t know nobody is ill anymore I’ve had worse colds so that’s winding me up that we are putting ourselves through this for a generally mild illness!
On the other hand my mental health and to be honest my kids MH and OHs MH is horrific me and my OH are losing it with the kids constantly!! We’ve always had a great routine and this has just been the icing on the cake to complete fuck it up. I’ve battled with PND with has been awful as DC were very wanted as I had recurrent MC before (also affected my MH) I am on antidepressants that have been helping but this is finishing me off!

To make it worse my DD was going to preschool on 2 of the days I don’t work so this meant I caught a break whilst DS napped. She now can’t return to preschool as our CHildminder we use on my work days has said we can only use her as the covid outbreak from DDs preschool has made her more cautious (I respect this fully) so it’s not like I’m going to catch a break anytime soon!!
I have a beautiful hone and the kids are wrecking it this adds to my depression again why routine and those few hours to myself help to keep everything in order!
Oh and to add my DS has learnt to climb out his cot so the side is now off and he won’t nap so is grumpier than ever....my other plan when preschool returned was to do long buggy walks but my 3 year old hates walking so that just fills me with anxiety!

For the first time in all this I really feel my freedom has been taken as I say I really wanted my children but when I planned them I had the choose to do it my way and that included using nurseries etc to have a little bit of me time and be able to go out to work etc. I’m now mainly working from home so again just feel so trapped.

Sorry for the long rant but I have so many emotions today and could go on and on!!

I’ve also been trying to stay positive about the rest of the year as we are suppose to have our postponed (due to covid) abroad wedding and hen and stag dos this spring/ summer and now that’s looking like it’s hanging in the balence again!! So can’t even get excited anymore.

Sorry for the downer post just had to rant somewhere whilst hiding from crying screaming children

Isolating with two such little ones must be tough. If you are into week two though you can't have long to go, so at least you will be able to get out again soon. For now can you and your DP take it in turn to hide in the bedroom for a bit of a break?

It’s a killer we are both working from home too he normally goes out to work as he runs his own company in construction so he’s really not used to what it’s like with 2 little ones at home. I’ve let him barricade himself in the front room for work as basically he needs to work to keep a roof over our head luckily I’ve been able to take this week off but again the mood I’m in I just think what a waste of annual leave I know everyone is so done with this now just wish we had an end date!!

Sorry, are you isolating for 2 weeks? It sounds from your post as if you have been doing it forever. So until last week you had your DC in nursery/childminder and were able to go out for walks? You'll be able to do the same next week, surely? I assume the nursery will take your DC the days that the childminder used to do.

As you say in your post, other people have had it worse.

Childminder will continue to take the children the days I work but have made a policy they only want us to use one setting so my children will only be going to the childminder on the days I work. Where as before Dd caught covid from preschool she could go to preschool 2 days a week too so it will not be the normal routine with that gone.

I know but doesn’t change how I feel unfortunately

Done, ignore those trying to bait you, it's hard and it's tough and you are right to feel fed up of it, for me I'm in a similar position as you, and I desperately want to get in my car, drive to the beach about half an hour away, and walk for hours... but I can't as we live in fear of leaving our own square mile in case someone grasses us up, it's all so ridiculous, and with no end in sight!!

@hexonthebeach

Done, ignore those trying to bait you, it's hard and it's tough and you are right to feel fed up of it, for me I'm in a similar position as you, and I desperately want to get in my car, drive to the beach about half an hour away, and walk for hours... but I can't as we live in fear of leaving our own square mile in case someone grasses us up, it's all so ridiculous, and with no end in sight!!

Thank you for this I would love to join you for that walk

I completely relate to how you feel. Even down to your sadness over the house being trashed.

Sounds like you need a conversation with your partner. You BOTH need quiet time away from the kids. If he needs to be head-down Monday-Friday, so be it (though I struggle to believe it) - but he needs to find a way to give you a chunk of three hours 'off' at the weekend. Regularly. So that you can look forward to it. Even if you use it to clean/tidy/declutter (which I wouldn't, but whatever gets you through the week).

You are right I will be getting him to take the little terrors out for a park trip this weekend so I can have a sort out and a cuppa in peace!!! You don’t realise how much you miss the little things.

@user1493494961

As you say in your post, other people have had it worse.

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@user1493494961

As you say in your post, other people have had it worse.

Don’t be that person.

Isolating for two weeks fills me with dread, I completely understand where you’re coming from . We’ve been lucky in that we haven’t had to do an isolation periods -yet- but this Groundhog Day is pushing me over the edge!
The same walks over and over again , not seeing anybody and trying to keep everything chirpy for the dc is starting to wear thin.
No advice but completely understand how you feel !

Sounds like a very stressful situation OP, I hope you get your break ASAP.

Hi OP, I hear you. My DS10 had it in October, no symptoms, not a bother, and the whole shitshow around the testing and isolating was 20 times worse than the bloody virus. I had hysterical parents calling me to find out why my DS had it (his teacher gave it to him but its a virus so people catch it, imagine that!).

I'll do what I'm told to do but this Covid thing is going to have a lot worse indirect long term consequences than the actual virus.

Try and get some time to yourself, it's hard I know, I can't even go to the loo without the kids or dog looking for me. Keep breathing and daydream! I'm currently in Hawaii with Chris Evans in my head ;) x

@leafinthewind

Sounds like you need a conversation with your partner. You BOTH need quiet time away from the kids. If he needs to be head-down Monday-Friday, so be it (though I struggle to believe it) - but he needs to find a way to give you a chunk of three hours 'off' at the weekend. Regularly. So that you can look forward to it. Even if you use it to clean/tidy/declutter (which I wouldn't, but whatever gets you through the week).

Ha how funny, my DH is a KW who works weekends, it's not about inequality, it's about it being shit!

It’s not a race to the bottom; your feelings are completely valid and the same as a lot of people are feeling. There’s another thread on here today where everyone is saying the same; that they’re really struggling now and that’s without actual Covid added into the mix and no one is telling people that others have it worse.

I’m not sure why some people are touting walks as the holy grail of entertainment either. Trudging up and down the Same bloody routes you’ve been doing for almost a year in the freezing cold while trying not to slip on the ice is NOT fun.

I completely empathise. I’m homeschooling a 5 & 6 year old who (and I am grateful for this) have a full on daily timetable...by the time they have finished their final calls, and I’ve managed to do some housework, it’s time to cook dinner again. I never get a second to myself and we live fully rurally, so I can’t safely walk in the evenings. I feel like I’m going insane.

@LadyCatStark

It’s not a race to the bottom; your feelings are completely valid and the same as a lot of people are feeling. There’s another thread on here today where everyone is saying the same; that they’re really struggling now and that’s without actual Covid added into the mix and no one is telling people that others have it worse.

I’m not sure why some people are touting walks as the holy grail of entertainment either. Trudging up and down the Same bloody routes you’ve been doing for almost a year in the freezing cold while trying not to slip on the ice is NOT fun.

Walking round my neighbour has only lifted me desires to move out of it

There is a real special kind of martyrdom doing the rounds, it's ok to say your peed off with it all!

We had to isolate for two weeks over xmas as two of my children caught it. Also mild for them. It was a tough couple weeks knowing we couldn't even go for a walk and we did all start irritating each other by the end and the house was a mess. My youngest is 11 so can totally understand why being stuck home with little ones is difficult. Think the biggest blessing for me is mine are old enough to entertain themselves and do most of the school work independently through all this.

Once you can all get out ask your partner to take the kids out somewhere for a couple hours so you can sort the house and have a bit of silence! You may have to do the same for him too lol.

Just grabbed a moment to check my thread the dc are engrossed in peppa pig and after today’s 5am wake up I am going to try get them to nap that would be bliss and will happen if the universe is being kind today!! I’m so sorry so many of us are fed up but also feel a sense of warmth I’m not alone in all this. Have ignored the not so helpful comments and glad me and my very strong willed 3 year old are not the only ones who who have developed a dislike to walks over the past year!! And we live in an area with coastal and woodland walks which I love but not as the form of day out of you can even call it that!!

Can your DD go to child minder an extra day or half day?

I hope your DP is doing bath & bedtime so you can sit down with a cuppa?

Once your out of isolation can you start getting out to play areas / parks etc rather than walks?

@hexonthebeach same here, the smell of weed as we walked past houses got to us quickly. So much so that we moved at the end of May 😂. Only problem is, we’ve move to the countryside and the pavements run out very quickly!

[quote LadyCatStark]@hexonthebeach same here, the smell of weed as we walked past houses got to us quickly. So much so that we moved at the end of May 😂. Only problem is, we’ve move to the countryside and the pavements run out very quickly![/quote]
Am sick of pounding the same as pavements, I've analysed every house on the way and all their flaws, I have started to develop a real hatred for the area as a result!