Having a breakdown

[bunny85]

I don't really know what I'm trying to achieve by posting but the situation is critical. I'm finding it extremely tough and it's only just started. I'm isolated, I haven't seen friends for a very long time. I have 2 young children, 5 years and 11 months. The baby wakes up every hour at night, sometimes more often than that, every night. My husband is always at work (key worker) and Saturdays too. I'm on my own stuck in the house, baby whining non stop, wants to be carried all day, he's very heavy and I have a terrible backache, I'm exhausted during the day because of sleepless nights, the amount of homework and live lessons is unmanageable, my son is bored, they are both bored, I'm going out of my mind. I used to cook while the baby naps, now we use this time for homework. We live on pizzas and sandwiches. Every day is the same, it's raining all day every day, there's nothing to do, nowhere to go. I sit and cry all day every day. Sorry for the ramble, I don't know what I'm asking for. Thanks for reading!

Cant you take the youngest sledging ? The snow is lovely

I am so sorry OP, it is awful. I am in similar situation and also work full-time, so having to start work at 6pm when husband walks through door, until midnight and also weekends. I am a very positive person normally but think I'm close to a precipice that I didn't even know existed. Know you are not alone, and things will improve with time. You can do this.

OP, I feel so sorry for you. When mine were babies my DH worked abroad. I didn't have Covid to contend with so I can't pretend it was the same but I know how hard it was. I take my hat off to you.

If your eldest is still in reception just prioritise reading with him. Our library have started doing click and collect... you could get some reading books for him if you have a similar service. I wouldn't worry about anything else. Even if you just read to him.

With the weather I would buy some fugly wet weather gear and get out everyday regardless. Warm up with hot chocolate when you get home. Even if you just do 15 minutes around the block, it will help. Even better if you can meet someone as part of the under 1's bubble thing.

You can form a bubble in your circumstances and you should! This will even allow for night's away so you'll get a change of scenery. You can also meet one other adult not in your bubble for outside walks. Regardless of rain, get wellies and macs on and get out there. Will do you a world of good. Regarding schools, at this point nothing is confirmed so don't let rumours and hearsay stress you out x

Support bubble, or childcare bubble, or paid nanny help. Your mental health is incredibly important.