Lockdown, looking after every one all the blooming time, it's a bit much now!

[Souperspooker]

This is me screaming and venting so as to be able to carry on. Apologies if it's dull!
Not really looking for answers, I know they are
Look after yourself
Find space to be alone
Don't sweat the small stuff.

But I'm still frazzled as I'm sure so many other s are atm. It's just exhausting.

Husband is number one irritant right now

He has been trudging through a degree for many years, (ever since DD was born 6 years ago) at least one repeated year, some times PT to work alongside , countless failed and repeated modules, he's in the last stretch of final year finally. All these repeat s due to depression, anxiety, general stress . It's been so hard to support him through all this. We've been near splitting but have had counseling etc and things are better mostly. Eg chores he now sees them and does do his share.

Last summer pay lockdown was horrendous and I ended up escaping with kids to go camping for 2 week s as I just couldn't bear to be at home. Things got much better after that.

My daughter is a v intelligent and highly sensitive being and can be so intense. My mother (has said many insensitive things over the years!!) Said she has thought ADHD or autism, but no I think just v sensitive, and often knackered as she doesn't sleep and has done hypermobility so toileting is often forgotten so either that or her busyiness and forgetting to snack lead to moody flare-ups.

My toddler is two and v sweet and normal but bloody hell I'd forgotten how full on toddlers are!!
He wakes every 40 minutes or so every evening so down time is minimal, interrupted etc. Also obv affects 'quality' time with DH - although right now he's working most evenings .

Over the last year I've got all sorts of schedule s and plans which really help me, meal planning, bit of flylady, bit of visual list sort of things to help DD.

I think I'm peri menopausal, started charting my cycle and it's s bit short and symptoms fit with that. Extremely sensitive and moody during PMT which is now. He keeps telling me I'm not being nice but honestly I just feel do swamped with trying to keep us afloat right now. ...

I feel your pain!
DH is WFH, ds is WFH 2days a week, i work PT WFH too and i have home educated teen dd for the last 4 years so there just seems no space, i am so fed up with feeding he dishwasher too.
I go for walks to just get away but now dd has decided to join me, which is lovely but i crave time to myself.
I have bags of charity stuff now as teens both decided to clear out their rooms!
I feel bad complaining as others have it so worse than me, but that doesn't make it easier.

Now elderly parents have decided they want me to do regular online food shops, can't get them to grasp that you are not going to get one the day before and that they need to plan ahead.

Btw im posting because I was feeling like I'd had s v successful morning - got everyone up dressed etc in time, laundry on bla bla, house in order. Set up toddler with fun tuff tray pouring oatmeal and feed the farm animals activity, actually managed a bit of the home schooling for the first time, kept kids out if DH way . Then he appeared and I didn't respond to something as he wished but I honestly can't remenber what it was but I cried and ran out the back door as he told me how stressed he is s life is crap for him. He kept wanting to talk but I insisted no later as j needed to get toddler down for his nap, start lunch etc.
He's gone out for s bit as we also care for his elder ly dad, I wish we could just have a bit of space from eachother...
I'll take kids out for the afternoon and probably feel much better then

Thank you! Glad to know I'm not alone. Please continue to whinge!