The tears are flowing..

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So I've not been able to stop crying since boris' announcement this evening.

I feel so selfish. I just don't know why. I don't have children but I have a critically vulnerable partner.
I work in education as a receptionist / student support. There are already talks of us still being on site and covering in person. I just feel helpless and utter despair.

I have severe diagnosed and medicated anxiety and OCD, and the thoughts of not being able to escape the house is horrible. I don't want to get out of the house due to DV or anything of the sort by the way.. I just get extremely bad when cooped up inside..

I know I can go out for exercise by my anxiety is mainly based around the need to socialise with people, friends or not.. just to get out and ground myself with familiar shops, places, noises.. new faces.. i can't describe it very well but it really helps me to get out.

I just feel helpless.. I don't know why. I'm so so sorry to everyone that is in a worse position than this. X

You are not alone I have been crying all day honey big hugs x

@Spiratedaway I'm so sorry you're feeling the same. Sending big virtual hugs to you, too. I feel so stupid crying like I am but I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. It's like al hope we had gets ripped off. I know the vaccine is coming it's just hard to see the positives when this new strain is so prominent and doing the rounds so fast.

Could have written your exact words today has been brutal husband key worker , full time just job and a 2 year old and 6 year old at he which I was expected to home school stay strong x

You're not selfish. I'm sure there are many worse off but this is absolutely shit for all of us. Respect how you feel, take good care of yourself