Disclaimer- I’m feeling momentarily grumpy and sorry for myself.
We have shielded totally since March, to the extent DH has shielded with me. He has changed to WFH and if he couldn’t he was going to quit to do so. My doctors have told me not to do anything even see them. We have not been to shops/cafes etc.
We saw everyone go on holiday and out to eat in the summer, we couldn’t even risk going to a self catered place. We were seeing people outside at a distance but that was stopped. But feeling unreasonably jealous others still get to see people and other humans at the shops/work/even seeing another human at school pick up and drop off. But we’re not legally allowed to say hello to someone outside. So we hung on for Christmas, but we were clearly no fun as we could only see people outside. No one wanted to meet up with us, immediate family chose to see their friends inside over us. I don’t think that relationship will be repairable after being told that. But I can understand why you would want to see friends inside who your kids can play with. Friends liked coming to us outside before when rules allowed as we had patio heaters/comphy chairs and provided hot drinks in disposable cups. Seeing everyone meet their friends in the park still and we can’t sucks. But of course other friends wouldn’t want to see us when other friends where inside friends who you could get drunk with all day.
Anyway. Despite shielding we are only in group 4 for vaccines. I absolutely believe NHS staff should go first and then care home staff. But I don’t understand why I have to wait until the over 70’s have had theirs? They said us shielding people weren’t being admitted in great numbers. No fucking shit. All the groups that I am on no one has stopped shielding all year, to the extent of pulling their kids from school to homeschool to protect adults at home. Even now shielding is reinstated but Doris who is 75 can still go to the supermarket library and church but I can’t. Doris also spent all summer going round to her neighbours for tea and biscuits and company. If Doris was more at risk than me she would be told to shield again, but she isn’t. June it’s predicting I get my vaccine and Feb 2022 for DH.
Like I said, just feeling sorry for myself, everyone wants the vaccine and I absolutely think NHS first and care homes second, but surely then then most vulnerable not just age. But like I said, I just need a good cry and not to feel jealous of everyone who’s been on holiday this year and our for a meal or to a shop or even the fucking post office. I can’t even get my meal boxes from mindful chef any more as you can’t wipe the fuckers down. I was just angry at the last tier which allowed people to meet in a pub but not in my safely distanced garden, when going in a pub would possibly kill me. I know it’s because most people can’t be trusted and would walk through a house or use a toilet. End rant. Don’t even know what I’m asking. But I’ve gone from being an active member of society to now someone who if it came to it wouldn’t get an ITU bed in current climate where I usually do.