Sorry you've probably heard this before...

[missbecks90]

So I'm feeling pretty down right now. We've moved into tier 4 the day before New Years Eve & I just don't know how we get out of this mess... my mental health has taken a huge knock recently & I've been to proud of myself for getting off my antidepressants gradually since September & now because of this new knock back down I feel pretty rubbish again.
I feel like the worst mum in the world, I have no will or drive to do anything knowing each day in going to be the same again & there is no end in sight. I'm sorry I'm not sure of the purpose of my post other than hopefully looking for some reassurance that we will get there one day.

So sorry to hear you're feeling down just now. Have you got someone to talk to in real life?

New year's day is tough. If I'm struggling I find it helps to hold on to the idea that everything is temporary.

I guarantee you that we will get through this - battered and with some things different - but there is absolutely another side to this.

We have vaccines and once the weather changes, even with restrictions, things it will be easier to get out and about.

What you’re feeling is absolutely valid and a completely normal response to events, it’s really hard, but this isn’t how it’s going to be forever.

We will absolutely get through this. I’ve been through earthquakes and 9/11, and there’s always a surreal and depressed feeling during and after but humans are resilient. For as much tragedy as we have experienced, good things will also come from this. Just hang in a bit longer.

We will get there. Everyone is fatigued and fed up and understandably so. But it won't always be this way

Things will get better, it might not seem like it at the moment but they will. We've already passed the shortest day, so days are getting longer, the vaccines are here, spring is just around the corner.

I don't know you but doubt very much that you are the worst mum in the world. Feeling unhappy at the moment isn't a sign of failure, it's a perfectly normal human reaction to a horrible situation. But hang in there, this will pass.

If the antidepressants helped you, then ring the docs when they're open, and get a new prescription. Many people need ADs in the long term and that is nothing at all to be ashamed of.

@Orf1abc is right. There are no medals for getting through these times without medication - if they (or an alternative) would help then do it.

Thankyou everyone for your kind words, it has helped me though knowing I'm not the only one feeling like this..I think I beat myself up sometimes over not being the perfect "insta" mum..but we are healthy and I need to hold onto that now more than ever.
I have been on antidepressants for roughly 12 years (apart from 9months twice when I was pregnant) my reasoning for coming off them gradually is that I was knocked back from a job in the police force for being on them for a long period. I left my job to start a career in the police in September & they told me 5 days before my start date that actually I couldn't join despite passing everything else and (apart from this situation) having no long term health conditions. The home office doctor says I have to be completely off antidepressants for 2 years before I can re-apply to join. It's something I've always wanted to do career wise but my children came first and that's ok.
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