What's the point any more?

[JuneMoonstone]

This pandemic has killed our way of life. As I see it, it's destroyed all the joy that we once had in life - our freedom, socialising freely, companionship, being with our family and friends, hugs, kisses, handshakes, kids being properly in school without disruption, cinemas, theatres, art galleries, places of worship, restaurants, pubs, travel. The list goes on. Life is absolutely SHIT now. The WHO are saying this isnt even the worse one, that covid is nothing compared to the next pandemic that'll hit us... So what's the fucking point of being alive then? . I just can't see things getting better and even if they do get slightly better, I can't see us ever going back to how we were before. Apparently the wearing of face masks will go on for a long time. This signifies to me no return whatsoever to the old normal, at least not in my lifetime (I'm 44) I hate this so much.

I feel exactly the same. My DD, who is 9 cried herself to sleep tonight saying that her life will never be normal again. She’s devastated that she won’t be able to go to school next week. I hate all of this too, feels like we are just existing now.

Life WILL go back to normal. We've always had pandemics and we always return to normal.

I'm not saying it's not monumentally shit right now, it is. But things will go back to normal.

Sorry your feeling down OP. Also had a shit year for various reasons and its also really taken its toll on my 15 year olds MH. Its awful to see the change in her.
I am shielding so only going out for exercise but focusing on taking one day at a time, not looking too far ahead (which is unusual for me as i enjoy planning holidays, weekends away, days out and nights out etc), trying to view it as being safe at home rather than being stuck at home helps me, I try and smile at people and make small talk from a social distance with neighbours and other dog walkers, appreciate a smile from someone, saying hello to someone from a social distance, occasionally having a walk, a natter and a laugh with a good friend which is a tonic and like a night out. Enjoying a wintery or bright day, varying my walks in the local area, taking photos, increasing my steps, appreciating my family as they are teens they will be up and off to Uni before I know it. Binge watching on Netflix. I am sure the world will look much better and we will all have a much more optimistic outlook by April 21.

Take care OP 🍫 🍷 💐

Thank you for your replies. London1305f and Randebel,, that's heartbreaking about your children. My 5 year old has been affected too, we are very fortunate that she's able to go back to school next week, but for how long I don't know. I'm constantly on tenterhooks waiting to hear when schools will be shut again, as I'm sure is the same for all parents. I am so deeply saddened about the impact this is all having on young children, teenagers and young adults, just as I am about the impact this is having on just about everyone.

I totally agree with you and feel the same
I don't even have the same enthusiasm for my child
I feel like I've lost it all
I find it all really really hard
And I really made the most of life and how I wanted mine and my child's life to be going places for the day. Now, nothing
It's so different
I hate it all

purpleme12 I totally understand what you mean. I just feel like every day I'm just going through the motions and all I look forward to is going to bed at night. I find it so hard to stay positive for my daughter.

My 9 year old nephew was jumping for joy this evening when he found out he would have a longer holiday. I think of this summer when I met friends for drinks and meals outside. Transmission was low and the days were long, so I could fit in work, exercise and socialisng. It feels worse now because it's winter. You'll all feel better in Spring when millions have had the vaccine, the NHS is more normal and we can socialise outside again.

I agree, life is absolutely shit now. It’s existing, not living. I get by but there is zero to look forward to and I’m almost desensitised to it now; I almost don’t care.

Had our first child in August and we both agree, with hindsight, that we wouldn’t have TTC if we’d known about the pandemic. It’s certainly means there won’t be a second.