Just done...

[Ambersun18]

That's it really. I'm struggling. I know it's been the most difficult year for so many people but I'm really not coping. People around me think I'm ok but I'm not at all. It's been just one thing after another and I'm really starting to crumble.
Just reaching out for some support here!

Me too OP. It's so hard. Frustrating when you are good at pretending too, as people think you're fine, even when you tell them you're not. I'm struggling too. I'm a lone parent to a toddler with OCD, PTSD, and GAD. Very isolated, exhausted, no extra help re my mental health as services so backed up. Honestly don't know what the answer is.

Sorry to hear that, do you have any support? Things are bleak at the moment but I'm sure life will get better once more people are vaccinated.

I'm done too. My two best friends have support at home and one is a key worker so her kid gets school education. DPs DC lives with her mum 3 hours away so he can't help her except virtually. Everyone is like 'oh its only a few weeks' or 'everyone else is on the same boat' but I just want to scream. My DCs dad is useless and won't help with homeschool and I doubt either the secondary or the primary (in an area where they are closed indefinately because lets face it, the two week review is bullshit) will provide adequate education online as they will be too busy with keyworkers/vunerable kids. So, yet again my yr5 son will hate me for trying to teach him and end up in counselling again and my yr7 daughter will fall behind because I'm not a teacher. Not sure my mental health will hold out this lockdown tbh.

I'm done too and was about to start a thread to say the same thing. I'm miserable, I do not want to manage home schooling and work again and my teenagers are feeling it too. I genuinely wander what is the point of getting up tmrw. I have to though because my nhs job demands it. I have thought bad things towards people who have bent the rules all over social media and I'm not sorry today

I am done too and not sure how much more I can take I am depressed angry and emotional this isn't living

I’m following “da rulez” and staying home but that doesn’t mean I have to like them! I am mostly SO bored.

I know this sounds trite and trust me, I'm not a naturally positive person, but in just 2 to 3 months I think things are going to feel very different. Are you able to speak to your gp? You mag just need a bridge to get you to spring. Handhold

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Not sure how best to obtain support when everyone is in the same position? It doesn't feel right burden anyone with my worries. I'm already on medication as I've struggled with depression over the past few years. No real support from my husband as he just has no understanding of how I feel. He just gets angry with me and there's little / no support from him. I've just hit a wall today!

So sorry so many of you are struggling . January and February are difficult months in normal times and now there is all this going on.

Can you keep this thread going and hopefully it will be a bit of support ? A place to rant and get it all out surrounded by others who feel similar may help just a little bit.

Apologies if it’s a silly idea.

Sorry op

What specifically is it that's upsetting you the most?

I'm feeling dreadful today too. I can cope pretty well but for me (dramatic as it may sound) I feel my dcs childhoods are being completely trashed.

It just feels like everything is going pear shaped. Being someone who worries about everything I'm trying to find positives which don't appear to be forthcoming. Everyone is dealing with challenges at the moment I know but trying to see an end to this situation is eluding me. I have so much admiration for our NHS and key workers who are just incredible and showing so much strength. I wish I could be as strong as they are.

I'm not being facetious but what does "I'm done" actually mean?

It doesn't feel right burden anyone with my worries. I'm already on medication as I've struggled with depression over the past few years. No real support from my husband as he just has no understanding of how I feel. He just gets angry with me and there's little / no support from him.
Do you have anyone else you can talk to? Other family? I would want a relative to feel they could unburden themselves on me rather than suffer in silence.

Do you think your medication needs to be increased? Perhaps a mood stabilizer could be added to help you out if depression has lasted a few years.

You need to make your husband understand how you feel. Can you just ask him to listen while you purge yourself of your feelings and then ask him to take some time thinking about what you have said? Or could you write it down and ask him to read it? I think sometimes things, understandably, just come tumbling out of a depressed person which can scare and upset others.