I just can't do this any more

[heydoggee]

Pre Covid I had such severe health anxiety that I was under a psychiatrist. I slowly clawed my way back to sanity, while still suffering extreme anxiety.

I started feeling the most human I had in ages and then this month hit me like a freight train. First autistic DC1 has to isolate because of a positive contact. They've been home all month. Then tier 4. New strain. One of my chickens died. I need a tooth extraction and it's happening next week. Can't drive anywhere, because of frigging lorries everywhere, all routes blocked including to local hospital.

This is all outing but I don't care.

I can't carry on like this. I just want to scream.

Firstly - You’ve had a lot going on and it feels shit because it is shit.

I struggle with health anxiety and I find any stress makes my “symptoms” flare up - I relapse into worrying about something in particular that turns my blood cold etc etc. So I feel you.

It’s a really shitty time and you did really well to be feeling better. Are there any coping techniques that work for you? Is there someone else at home to watch the kids while you lock yourself away and give yourself a bit of time to have a cry?

I just want to send hugs, and a hand hold. im posting my own post shortly but your post is similar to my circumstances. Its awful all this stress 😪 huge hugs xxxxxx

I can't stay on top of it. Usually I can have a word with myself and talk myself round. This is just shit on shit on shit on shit.