It's too much

[Chocolatecake29]

I'm in Wales. Lockdown announced from midnight tonight. I'm at breaking point. I have a partner but he's working a lot, including overtime.
I have two young children, one of whom has severe autism/Sen (diagnosed). In the last few months, I've started having panic attacks again and currently suffering with depression. I'm on ADs. There's also been several other things going on.
This year has been tough, even regardless of Covid. Adding that to the mix has been even harder. I'm literally spending most of the time on autopilot, just trying to put on foot in front of the other and keeping it together for my children.

I've bubbled with my parents for support but due to circumstances and another lockdown, that's gone again. My son has been impacted massively due to lockdown, or to be specific, coming out of the last national one. We're still dealing with the ramifications of that. And now another one. And I can't spend Xmas with my parents.

I'm lost. I'm done. I can't cope anymore. I feel unbelievably sorry for the NHS staff dealing with all of this.

My kids are the only thing getting me through.

Is there not anyone you could bubble with, if not your parents, you must not face this on your own. You should come under vulnerable household as you are looking after an autistic child. Reach out and ask for help locally, you must for your own sanity. Take care xx

Thank you.
No, unfortunately not. ILs live too far away, slightly older, business commitments.

My parents live locally and we've bubbled until now but rates are high in our area and they're also supporting two elderly relatives and my brother with severe MH difficulties who lives alone. I've decided for their sakes and relatives not too bubble for now.

Just need an outlet. DH can't take time off as he's in demanding job and our only income. I'm a sahm because of DS. It just sucks.

It’s proper shit, I feel for you. Do you have a friend in a similar position you could form a bubble with?