It's really getting to me today. I'm a single parent household so I get hugs from my girls but it's not the same as a hug from an adult family member or friend. I have to be strong for the girls, I have to put on a positive, brave face for them and it's so hard sometimes. I just want to collapse in tears on someone's shoulder and be held but I only have my pillow once the girls are asleep, which is later and later now they're a tween and young teen.
I'm in a support bubble with my parents but they're not demonstrative and they'd hate it if I just collapsed on them. I just feel so low. It feels neverending with nothing to look forward to. I know rationally that I am lucky to be healthy, to have my girls, to have an income and a roof over my head, but I still can't shake this cloud.