Lockdown depression

[Hellin301]

Anyone care to join me in saying how utterly fed up they are of lockdown & this entire situation.

Cannot believe what life has become

I don’t think it’s fair to get bogged down with semantics as the OP is just trying to start a thread about feeling low which might bring her and others some support (and I say that as someone who has been diagnosed with depression).

But to answer the OP, goodness me I’m feeling low all of a sudden. I feel like I’ve coped very well so far considering I had a baby during the first lockdown and had no real support. Only just this week has it started to get on top of me for some reason.

I am totally and utterly depressed, frustrated and angry all the time. I hate this miserable apology for a life. I hate what it has done to social relationships. I hate the isolation. Most of all, I hate people's reactions to other people. Look at the patronising posters here trying to score points off the OP for the language she used. I also absolutely HATE the bile that has come out on MN with these ignorant and sanctimonious people telling everyone else they are wrong. I hate my life and I hate this situation.

I've been so low since Thurs (eternal optimist and stupidly thought a month of national lockdown would mean restrictions easing in Dec...).

Comforting to know I'm not alone. Like a PP I'm lucky in that I'm healthy, able to wfh etc but my god I'm struggling. Never been diagnosed with clinical depression. Glad the "language purists" (great term) have been picked up for being pedantic.

Just feels like no light at the end of the tunnel

T3 since July. I feel like it's all sucking the life out of me. We are both working and kids at school but no fun stuff at all

We managed in the initial lockdown reasonably OK, but my partner has lost her job, and indeed a career she spent years retaining to do. So, she is now utterly depressed, to the point she wonders what life is about. I find her depression is now affecting me, I want to help but find it very difficult. I myself have seen my business hammered, and face either working till age 70, or enforced early retirement.

Am fed up and depressed (and yes, I do know what depression is.... for the gatekeepers out there). My usual coping mechanisms have been taken away. My thoughts are dark and I am struggling to fight them now.
People keep telling me there is light at the end of the tunnel but I am convinced it is an oncoming train.

@XenoBitch

Am fed up and depressed (and yes, I do know what depression is.... for the gatekeepers out there). My usual coping mechanisms have been taken away. My thoughts are dark and I am struggling to fight them now. People keep telling me there is light at the end of the tunnel but I am convinced it is an oncoming train.

Convinced it’s an oncoming train 😆

I was really struggling with school being closed and no face to face therapy for my struggling dd..
Now schools are open and therapy has starting back up I am feeling less stressed and anxious.
Still missing my family etc but getting there.

My story/history is probably a bit different from most people's. I've lived alone for many years before the lockdown started, and so I have already gone through a lot of the pain and numbness of all this before it started for everyone else. So in that way I count myself very lucky, because it hasn't changed my lifestyle in a huge way. When it all started, I was frightened and anxious about this huge pandemic that I thought was going to kill everyone. Didn't leave the house for 3 weeks this time last year. But as May/June/July 2020 progressed and I saw that this wasn't the return of the Black Death, my fears faded, and I began to think "what on earth is actually going on here...the world's economies are being shut down - for THIS? This doesn't add up" Anyway, at first I sank into a bottle of wine, but I don't know how, somehow I told myself "No! Snap out of it!" and I began to use the time to eat better, exercise more, cut out the wine, and I started going back to church and reconnecting with a faith in God. Now, I wouldn't say that the past 12 months have been completely easy for me, I've had days where I've been angry and crying and feeling depressed and utterly bewildered at what is happening, and feeling that it's all beyond my control. However, on balance, I look back to the person I was before lockdown and compare it to the person I hope I'm becoming now, and I feel thankful, and I would rather be the "me" I am now to what I was before all this.
I lurked on here for months before registering, and my heart has gone out when i read all the posts from everyone who's suffering, and I registered because I somehow wanted to help anyone, if I can. I don't know how to do it, everyone is different of course, but all I can say is that my three-point plan which helped me is, Better eating (cut down on junk/ hi-carbs, more cereal), exercise (just a two-mile walk every day you can) and (ok, this is a dificult one, as I don't want to be all preachy to anyone! and I know some people won't want to hear this) but for me, prayer and churchgoing has been the absolute game changer that has got me through this.

So sorry your feeling like this, OP. A lot of people including myself are feeling like this.

There is no joy in life anymore, nothing to look forward to.
Myself and 2 friends who have toddlers, have all had to ask the doctor for some medication as we were struggling. A friend who already has depression had to go on a higher dose. Lockdown depression is real and don't let anyone dismiss it.
I have recently feeling better due to medication and the road map dates, it gives us a rough end to all these restrictions.
Hang in there