I am not in a good place tonight. I haven’t really had anxiety before but have suffered with it over this pandemic. I am 45 and have a BMI of 45. I am desperately trying to get it down but I have a lifelong history of eating disorders and it’s hard. I’m convinced that if I get Covid I’ll be very very sick or die. I also look after my elderly parents with numerous conditions.
My 6 and 8 year old have been back at school since September and I have been scared every day. They broke up for half term last Friday and I don’t think I’ve ever felt such relief. I finally slept through the night again. I’m honestly making myself ill.
I had pinned my hopes on England also having a circuit break for a few weeks over half term so that cases would drop at bit and I might not feel quite so terrified at sending my children back a week on Monday. But it looks like that’s not happening. Our cases have doubled in a week to 155 in 100000.
What does everyone think will happen with schools? Is it worth hanging on a bit longer in the hope that they might move to blended learning or something? Should I just give up and deregister although they would be devastated. Or do I just take the risk so that can carry on at school.
I have absolutely no idea what I should do anymore. I feel so helpless.