Seems like no matter what we won’t ‘win’

[MonsterMash2210]

I don’t post or anything usually, I am more of a lurker if I am honest. However I am really starting to find everything just so hard.

Is it time to admit that whatever we do we are just well and truly screwed? Lockdown or don’t lockdown I cannot see any scenario where there won’t be major casualties one way or another.

I have listened and looked into both side of the lockdown argument and I agree with them both. It just feels like we are doomed and there just seems to be no end to it. I am just so deflated. No matter what society and the NHS, our economy, education, everything will be destroyed.

Sad thing is, it’s not just us. Things look just as bleak in other countries. I really do fear what will happen if an effective vaccine or treatment is never found.

I’m not usually this bleak and on a personal level I am not worried about myself at all. However on a wider level amongst my friends and family and even society as a whole. I am very worried. I am usually the one telling people everything will be ok, don’t worry. However right now, I am struggling to be positive. I could really do with someone reassuring me.

I just want some glimmer of hope I guess. I am doing everything I am supposed to but I just don’t know what the answer is or what is right anymore.

I am just so tired, I am running out of fight in me I think.

@Wannaflyaway

I hope to God masks don't become a thing here like in Asia. People will become less and less social if they become the norm here permanently. You can't communicate properly in them. It's horrible not being able to smile at people and vice versa. It's hard enough making friends as it is these days without having the extra barrier of a mask.

This. Not that it's default to wear masks all the time there anyway. More common than Europe, but really not a default. I was travelling through China around the time of Swine Flu and didn't see much of them at all from Hong Kong to Beijing.

Elderly DM can't hear or lip read mask wears at all. She could cope with my visor. Masks rub in the social isolation in public places as well as all the time at home.

"Good" to see a flurry of critical articles about the toll of all these restrictions at the weekend. People die. It's a toss up between excess deaths from Covid 19 in 2020 or kicking it down future years to excess deaths from all the other causes of mortality because the economy (which pays for the NHS) and people have been mentally broken by a difficult year with an absence of personal support.

It just takes longer to declare the stats of suicide at inquests or find out why someone died alone at home when their mates might have persuaded him to get checked out in the hospital if they could legally have met down at the pub, or if that cancer could have been detected in a more timely way for more effective treatment.

I think the biggest problem I have is I don’t have the knowledge to judge how dangerous this virus is. I have no idea how dangerous it is compared to things like the flu/ cold.

All I have is the information that has been released by the Government, experts, and the media. A lot of the information I have read completely contradicts something that has been released somewhere else.

How on earth do I decide what is truth and what is fictitious when I barely have any former knowledge or expertise.

I have no idea if this is a really dangerous virus or a huge global conspiracy. However, if there is a chance that this virus is more dangerous than other viruses in circulation then I feel that I should do my bit to keep others safe.

At the end of the day, I can see both sides of the argument and both sides seem ‘right’ to me. This is why I am so conflicted and why it feels like we will never get anywhere.