I've literally had to avoid any news coverage the last 2 days.
I didn't cope very well in March at the beginning of all this, BJ telling us 'be prepared to lose loved ones' frightened me beyond belief and anxiety levels went through the roof.
My mum is ill, very ill, copd and numerous other health conditions, we're all very aware she won't make it if she gets it, although we're also aware her health is so not good we may not have her for the foreseeable anyway.
I worked through lockdown as I had to, my children also worked through lockdown. All of us in positions that we could easily come into contact with Covid. Luckily and thankfully we didn't.
We limited contact with mom/nan. She hasn't been out of her accommodation in 8 months (she now never wants to anyway)
She wants and yearns physical contact with me, 2 adult grandchildren, an 8 month old great grandchild and the mother of the great grandchild.
Mom has listened to the news and has told us she's not prepared to go though it again , she wants to see us.
I'm a mess as I know if she gets it it's come from us. We will of (sorry can't even say it, but I hope you know what I mean)
I have to care for her. Make dinner, do housework etc.
I'm tired and worn out, I don't want to look at the facts and figures although I've heard rumblings of 50,000 a day come next month,
How do I continue to look after my mom, how does she have any quality of life with loved ones.
Do we abide by her wishes or do we regret not standing by her wishes.