Haven’t been to a hospital or GP surgery since February, but been asked to come in for several tests tomorrow . It’s being done on a ward which is confusing in itself as it’s just outpatient tests - no anaesthetic required or anything ...
I’m not good at being a patient in normal times, I suspect even less so now . I have PTSD about being examined .
Been told I can’t have anyone with me, they can’t guarantee a chaperone from the hospital . Not allowed diazepam as need to be with it enough to cooperate and might affect results .
I am getting myself more and more worked up, I’ve been to the same ward for three operations before and really don’t want to go back there ... surely the corona will make everything much worse too as they’ve said building routes are all altered, one way systems and checking ID/hospital letters regularly . Said staff I see will be in full PPE so I’m guessing that means shields and masks etc ...
Are hospitals as scary as I’m imagining now?