Exhausted!

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Please tell me I'm not alone. Managing work, kids, lockdown life and home schooling has drained me. I have nothing left now. I can't be the only one?!

Yup, all too much

Yes, both DH and I have worked throughout with one to home school and one to keep an eye on (old enough to work mostly independently)

We are on holiday this week, but I just want to cry from exhaustion really, despite having a nice enough time.

You're not alone!

Me too....am dead inside.....

Yep im exhausted and ran out of ideas of what to do with my kids.

Yep, just feel like crying all the time. Had a full on weep about the uygurs in China in the shower today (normally pretty stoic about these things but I’ve got no capacity for anything anymore).

Me too, have a shielding dh, a severely disabled dd and two sets of elderly parents.... keeping everyone safe and taking care of their needs has finished me.

Yes me too! Utterly exhausted and completely over explaining to various family members and friends why no I'm sorry we won't be attending the party/bbq/play date/whatever

I just need silence just for 5 minutes

I hope none of you take this the wrong way but I'm pleased it's not just me. I've cried today, so much. I honestly cannot take anymore now. I was going to take the kids out but it's raining so I'm not. I start work at 5.30am to fit in something each day with the children. One is asd. I cried because I don't have the energy to go to the park or entertain kids at home. I want to go to bed and sleep, binge watch Netflix and just be fed meals. I want no more questions about meals, washing, housework. I have a dead parents house to clear (it's killing me emotionally), I have three elderly parents/step parents living alone that I have to try to look after. Both DH and I work 40+ hours a week. I've worked at home for 5 months now and I hate it.

I feel selfish for wanting time off when so many are facing redundancy. I feel bad for wanting some time away from my children when so many want children and can't have them and I'm so lucky to have older family but I may have reached burn out now. I feel flat, I can't sleep, I'm anxious and on edge all the time, I can't concentrate on reading books which I normally love.

I am with you, working from home in a v stressful job since 16 March, two kids under 10, husband working outside of the home, no local family etc... I'm on my arse, no one else I know seems to be doing what I am to the extreme I am. Sick of it.

I feel exactly the same, only difference is that I already homeschooled and worked from home before this, but my workload had quadrupled since the pandemic started and I am a single mum. I do still have tiny moments of pleasure and happiness but they feel so few and far between compared to before. I'm also studying with the OU part time.
I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep and wake to eat and then sleep some more. I'm so so mentally tired and I just have nothing left.

I think a lot of people feel that way. I am crying daily now. Lone parent, 2 children (one with severe learning diffs and ASD and no school place offered despite EHCP) and working from home 5 days a week (furlough also refused). having a child with SN and holding down a job was hard but I never know this level of exhaustion...

Yup.. adore the kids but it’s been so full on. Over 5 months here of no school , no childcare ( and the area I live in had very little childcare options even before covid so can only imagine now..). Also trying to keep our jobs and we have absolutely no idea what will happen in September. Zero information.
Likely to be at least 4 different pick ups /drop offs and that’s only if school reopens, absolutely no idea how we can do it with our work. No family help etc..
Does anyone else find that they struggle to get up in the morning? I’ve never felt like this before .. permanently exhausted.

Mornings not too bad, I'm finding the relentlessness of getting up, prepping a meal, working/schooling/neglecting the kids, prepping a meal, work/schooling/neglecting the kids, prepping a meal, cleaning/tidying, bath time, bedtime, no time for me exhausting... all in a very small space!

Yep. DH and I both working from home, 3 primary age children, one with ADHD who is prone to massive rages. There was a point that his emotions were taking around 5 hours a day to manage and I was in tears multiple times a day. I hate that we are neglecting the children and they are sniping at each other to get attention from us :(. And yes to the relentless meal prep - whilst I am pleased we all eat together more, in reality it means I prepare the meal, children spend 10 mins wolfing it down, and DH washes up. I would prefer a few 'child' meals and 'adult' meals but I can't spare the time!

I think the call it the corona coaster, good days and bad days but it is certainly relentless. What I find difficult is the constant feeling of uncertainty that hangs over us and not being able to plan too far ahead. My DC ask questions about what school will be like in September, when we can visit family abroad or even Christmas and I don't have the answers. I just don't know anything about anything anymore.

Yes it's been tough. I lost a parent during lockdown and haven't been able to have a single hug from anyone other than my kids. Working from home has been absolutely relentless and my team are now all at breaking point and going off sick.

This is the first time since this all began that I've felt really down. Been relatively ok until this week but it's all starting to get to me now. I know others have it harder so feeling guilty on top of that too..

It's so hard isn't it! I remember in March when they closed the school's and there was the mention of 8-12 weeks. I never expected to still be going 4-5 months on.

What's going to happen when keyworkers break because of the constant work pressures? This is summer, I cannot think about winter like this or I will break.

Been broken here for weeks. Work has been horrendous. I feel like I need six months off to recover both physically and mentally.

I’m so run down I keep getting tonsillitis, then the GP who won’t even see me, tells
me over the phone to rest! Err when?!!!

I've been broken for about 10 weeks! I have the odd good week but generally I'm just exhausted feel like I can't get away from work or get a moment to think.

Same. Really struggling this week. So tired I could cry and/or fall asleep standing up even when I’ve just woken up, Pissed off with everyone and everything and wish I could have a break from my family.