To feel abit flat about September.

[Melonslicexx]

I've been climbing the walls a little bit lately. I must admit having my daughter at home instead of being at school has been a bit tricky at times. It's become a new normal now though now and the thought of September has given me massive mixed feelings. I've just bought all her uniform today and I just almost feel like I didn't need to buy it. I don't feel like she's even going to be there a lot through the autumn and winter. I feel like there's going to be kids going home with symptoms and normal viruses will also be closing bubbles for a few days whilst tests come back. Eventually people in the school will get it and then people will be worried and at some point there will be localised closures.

I know we all need to get back to normal but I can't help thinking it's going to be another school year that the kids don't get to complete. Parents need to get back to work, yet the schools are going to be so random and unpredictable. There's lots of changes and they're not even going to be having a school meal. It just seems like the future just looks a little bit rubbish. I want my daughter to go back to normal but then I know she's not going back to normal. I know that it's going to be a really difficult time and it just makes me feel flat.

The way masks are being pushed and in different areas of life if makes me wonder how bad this virus is going to be when all the kids are back at school. I know the virus isn't going anywhere until there's a vaccine but surely everybody going back to normal will mean the virus will be worse than it has been through lockdown. How many more months will we be seeing 100 people dying every day in the UK. Does anybody else feel that we are just collateral damage now? I just hate the fact that our children can't have a normal childhood because of this virus. I also feel worried about the usual back-to-school bugs. within a week of starting I'm sure my daughter will have a runny nose and a fever. Especially because she hasnt mixed this year. not to mention if her brother starts nursery he's going to be poorly all the time and and she can't go to school if anybody in the house has a fever or a cough.

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All kids will be in a similar situation. And it won't be forever. When they are adults they will swap lockdown stories.

Our youngster didn't get to do the PGL trip his brother did, he had been looking forward to it for two years, I think I could actually hear the moment his little heart broke (I know it's a tiny thing in the great realm of things but it wasn't to him at the time).

We can only accept what happens and put on a brave face at least in front of the kids.

On average 1347 people die per day in the UK anyway, so that's all a bit of a moot point. Death always has and always will happen, but that's me being an irreverant realist about mortality.

September seems quite abstract. My two are well into the primary years so haven't had formal schooling.
Now things are easing up, I'm trying to get out on outings for some normality and my minset has shifted from lockdown groundhog day to a perpetual week 5 of the summer holiday feel which is an improvement.

School stuff I tend to buy in August anyway. DS1's shorts tend to last forever (trouser refuser) but DS2 may need replacements. Shoes; they are living in trainers. Definitely t-shirts as I didn't replace last summer.

Not sure if term dates are shifting for induction with other classes. About all I know is that the teachers are staying with their current teaching year. Good news for DS1 as his new teacher was running an extra curricular so he knows her. Not heard anything really from the new SENCO.

I'm mainly trying to live in the moment, get some kind of stimulating holiday vibe and looking forwards to a UK holiday, different region to usual.

Just for a bit of perspective.. Around 1500 die every day in the uk. I'm not trying to suggest it doesn't matter. Just that we can't sit there and act like it killing 100 a day is wiping out our population and we are all in very immediate danger.