Not looking forward to going back to 'normal'

[lorisparkle]

Whilst in many ways I am glad that lockdown is easing there are certain things I am not looking forward to,

Before lockdown I was rushing here there and everywhere - from work to picking up children from childcare to home to some sporting thing to home to some parents evening etc etc. I felt like a hamster on a wheel.

There was also issues at work that I could forget about but with work opening back up I am going to have to face them head on.

DH was also having work issues and now those are all coming back again and he is back to being Mr Grumpy!

Anybody else????

I'm dreading it. It's been so lovely here. No arguments, everyone got on, no stress, a very happy dh as he had no stresses from his job. Been able to get up without an alarm, no school runs, no lunches, no hospital appointments. Just appreciating been able to walk local and doing the bare minimum.

Already, we've received many messages from both sides of the family for weekends away, been told we must be loaded and can afford it as we cancelled this year's holiday and haven't been going out. The stress of people messaging and organising all these things makes me very anxious, I've even had sil on arranging Christmas in MY house this year!! Some people just need to be doing something every second of the day, need to have a plan every week. I've really realised that, that just isn't me and I'd be happy living with only essential places opened.

During lock down we were all on the same page so no one was doing something better/more than someone else. While we can decline invites it's frowned upon as people don't understand why you don't want to be meeting with them every week or going on weekends.

And actually, lockdown has been fine for me. We’re lucky. DH’s job is stable, and we can live comfortably off one income. I have children with no SN who coped fine with home schooling (they’re back at school now).
But I still miss my volunteering, helping out at the school and with Rainbows. I miss my team sports, and being involved with my children’s dance school. We don’t need my freelance income to live but I miss my work. I miss going out for meals and to the theatre.
And there’s no shame in missing those things, and wanting them back. I am not condemning anyone to death.