Does anyone else feel touched out?

[TomorrowAlways]

I can't be bothered to talk t any of my friends on Zoom or whatever, I don't even feel close to them anymore. I only have the energy to talk to family right now.

My friends are going on about how they went to Costa and got a coffee etc...I find it all so superficial and irritating, I'm just not in that space right now. I'm in the 'what the fuck just happened?' and 'is it going to happen again?', 'can I ever hug my parents again?' space...and the more they skip for joy over cafes opening etc the more sick I feel...I know that's unfair, its just how I feel, anyone else?

Take a bit of time out. Don't make any sweeping decisions at the moment. Your friends probably have all the same feelings you do but are just celebrating one small piece of normality of getting a coffee they didn't make. It doesn't mean that this situation isn't pants, that we all aren't missing family and friends but for 20 small minutes if going to Costa makes you forget all this just for a bit it isn't such a bad thing.

I feel the same re not being bothered talking to friends. At the beginning of lockdown we did quizzes twice a week and took it in turns...We've completely lost the will to live with it and there's not a lot to talk about. We've tried online games but just not enjoying it anymore. It's not the same.

Whilst I understand where you're coming from, as I've had similar feelings myself, I also sympathise with your friends as I think things like coffee shops re-opening are just helping to give people a bit more normality. I remember being very low one weekend and the fact that the local Pret had re-opened and I could sit in the park at lunch time and enjoy a coffee gave me a much needed boost. At times I think 'What's the point? Nothing has really improved.' But I suppose just keep in mind your friends enjoying these things re-opening might not come from a superficial place. The bit of normality might be giving them some hope.

You're right, I know its unreasonable of me, and I feel bad for feeling this way...I guess I haven't processed all the madness yet...

I have no idea when I’ll next be able to see my parents. They’re 70 miles away & I don’t drive. (Londoner, up to this point not driving hasn’t been a problem).

But meeting friends to share a takeaway in the park, or sitting in a sunny square with a cappuccino, are making me ridiculously happy at the moment because it feels like so long since I’ve been able to do them and as a pp said they’re a slice of normality. I’ve had severe depression in the past and I know that letting myself celebrate the little things is going to help me cope MUCH better.

Thank you Empress for putting a different perspective on it for me, to thinking about it as a way of coping makes sense to me

You’re welcome, Tomorrow. I’m glad if it helps.