Had an absolute enough now. Breaking point.

[Mummypig2020]

I’m really really struggling now. We’ve been locked down since March, it’s bloody June next week.

The dc are driving me insane, their mental health is struggling. Dd3 doesn’t want to go school in September even though she was so excited too, she’s started becoming so clingy, and cries none stop when Dh goes work. She’s gone from such a confident little soul.

We’ve been on so many different walks, played in the garden etc but it’s not the same. The older two (12 and 10) are missing their friends.

I’m at breaking point. It’s constant noise. Even if they go for a walk it’s barely any time because they moan it’s too hot.

I have bpd and struggle with noise and this is making me worse.

Me and Dh have normally an amazing marriage but even now it’s straining. We are having zero adult time or conversation because someone else is always around.

Even the cat is getting depressed and has gone from playful kitten to a sleeping cat constantly.

It’s not even like it’s the summer holidays where we can do family things/days out. I’m fearing for my mental health 😩😩

Just me then

No, me too. 😱

It’s not just you, I think it’s just people don’t have much in the way of resources to offer much support or even commiserations.

Your situation practically mirrors mine but all I can do is agree it’s shit.

It’s no hardship to spend some weeks at home. Better than being in intensive care. Don’t lose sight of what this is about. I’m more concerned about going back to “normal”.

I'm sorry you're feeling so crap. I've absolutely hit a wall this week too. Me and Dh are working like dogs to keep the family afloat, my toddler hates my online teaching and screams throughout. Everything feels like such hard and there's nothing to look forward to. I also have mental health problems (2 nervous breakdowns and ocd) and a disability. Every day is exhausting and thankless. I just want to see my mum.
Sending love to you and your family xx this will pass, that's what I keep telling myself xxx

I'm sorry op. I'm feeling a bit like that but my kids aren't young so not the same pressure. It must be so hard and I'm just sorry. I can't offer any light at the end of the tunnel, but I know this can't go on forever. I try to see it as a week at a time.
Thinking of you, and everyone

No. You are def not alone. I’ve got a 3 year old & newborn baby born the day before lockdown. I had PND after my first & it ruined my maternity leave. I felt so happy after my DD2 was born, a world away from how I felt after my first. But now I feel myself slipping back into not wanting to wake up in the morning because it’s another shit day. A 3 year old struggling to adjust to a baby & throwing violent tantrums all day. And a baby who won’t nap & is hard work. And I don’t even get to go to sleep for 6/7 hours & forget. I’m awake every couple either with baby or DD1 whose sleep is atrocious since lockdown/baby. I’m exhausted & it just never ends. Zero time for any time with my OH, we’ve always got one kid or another!

I feel flat. I often cry. I’m angry that I’ve been robbed of maternity leave & robbed of a normal experience with my baby.

But what can I do 🤷🏼‍♀️ My elder daughter is thankfully nursery age so will be going back next week fingers crossed! I think that’ll help, some time with just my littlest & time to get on top of housework! Then at least on the days she’s here, I feel less guilty etc etc!

Hang in there, it’ll get better eventually!

It’s no hardship to spend some weeks at home.

That's very circumstantial and completely unhelpful. To many people like the OP it clearly is a hardship. My ptsd was fine at the start of march, barely no involvement from the adult mental health team. I'm struggling now to the point that I almost got sectioned a few weeks ago and am getting regular phonecalls from my psychiatrist.Things are looking up for me but apart from the circumstances which caused said PTSD I'm exceedingly privileged in many ways. Everyone I know is struggling and those with existing mental health issues have all upped their meds.

Sorry I have no practical advice.

I'm so sorry you're feeling so horribly. Countless people are, and I've had moments of feeling very guilty because I've had an easy time of it in lockdown. My not having a house full of young children is the reason, I'm sure. I cringe to think of living through this when my children were little, because I think I would have lost the plot.

I am very concerned there is going to be a tsunami of mental health crisis around the world because of this lockdown. People are really suffering.

I hate it , I've hated it all the way through. I've really struggled with everyone around me acting like they love it.
I've got no excuse , I'm furloughed and only have one dc who goes to his dad's every weekend.
So many people on here have it worse than me and I appreciate that but omg I hate it.
I want to to shopping/ sea side/ restaurants/ bars / holiday , but more than anything I want to go back to work .
Most people will not end up in intensive care if they caught covid that is a very flimsy excuse now for almost 3 months of this shit.

@catspyjamas123 - yes, yes it is a hardship for some people. And my situation isn’t even that bad. But it’s still really hard & exhausting & people’s mental health is not a trade off for ‘at least you aren’t in ICU’

Of course, I’m very grateful for my physical health, my families & not for one minute do I not care about those becoming very ill.

But for some, being at home isn’t easy. And I’m a real home bod. I love my house. But I also love my family & friends. I love having some time to myself (just an hour would be nice at this point). I also value my child’s education that she’s missing & I value how important socialising with other children is.

There are people in tiny high rise flats, people struggling to put food on the table, people loosing their jobs, people who will struggle to keep their mortgage & a roof over their families heads. There are kids stuck in dire situations at home.

It is what it is but it’s still absolutely shit.

It’s no hardship to spend some weeks at home

Not for you, maybe, but there are plenty for whom this is very hard.

It’s no hardship to spend some weeks at home

Yes it is, for some. Like the OP, who has posted because she is struggling and is worried about her mental health.
But yeah, nothing matters except Covid eh?