This is just shit, right? Right?!

[BlueEggsAndSpam]

JFC this is endless. I don’t know how people who live alone are coping.
I’m so fucking lonely. My husband is still working full time from home and I’m on my own with a 9 month all day. We use to be very busy in the week with groups, coffees, swimming, even just doing the food shop. Now there’s nothing. No family near by for ‘socially distant walks’, I don’t know any mum friends well enough to see if they want to bend the rules to go on a socially distant walk, no pre-baby friends close enough to go on walks or they aren’t really baby types so aren’t really going to be up for me rocking up in the Tula and stopping to breast feed.
I need to stop looking at social media everyone I know seems to be furloughed and going on day trips every day! We feel very lucky that my husband isn’t furloughed as we are hoping this means his job will be relatively safe (maybe grasping at straws?!).
The baby just wants to practice crawling / walking / standing all day which is great but it means I just sort of sit next to her making sure that she doesn’t crack her head open. I can’t even mop a floor without her getting up to hijinx.
This probably isn’t helped by the fact that she wakes up multiple times a night and I’m cosleeping solo with her. I love her sooo much but it’s so flipping intense, it feels like we spend 24 hours a day alone together.

We are luckier than most. No massive financial worries. A garden. All healthy. Nobody we know has been affected by the virus. But fuck me, I am wallowing in an ocean of self pity today.

If I remember rightly, at this age I used to childproof the room- really childproof it- and doze on the sofa at about 3/4pm. I just couldn't keep going any longer. He used to cruise and clamber around the furniture. I also moved all the breakables up to unreachable cupboards and let him empty everything out of the lower cupboards. It was worth the effort to keep him busy for ten minutes.

Yanbu op it's so shit.

Dh is out at work all day and I'm at home on my own trying to work, get the kids to do the school work, I'm so bored, fed up and lonely.

Yes, it's shit. I am up half the night with a night terror-ing 5 year old, she then wakes me up at 7.30, I do childcare and home school until 12.30, at which point I go into the office and plan and record lessons for children, 30% of whom will look at them, this takes me until midnight on lots of days (with a break to do bedtime).

Then I look at the news, or I read stuff on here, and everyone is slagging off teachers for not doing any work, for being scared, for being lazy and so on. I am beyond stressed about work, it's going to be an awful couple of years, yet to most people I should just suck up the risk and get back to doing childcare.

So yes, it's shit.

A lot of people out and about enjoying themselves today that's for sure.