I’m scared

[zoezoeok89]

I’m a new mum to a 12 week old baby boy and I’m scared for him. I lost my mum when I was 16 and I’m scared he’s going to lose me.

I had suspected gestational diabetes during my pregnancy (unconfirmed) and have just checked my blood pressure and my diastolic is mildly elevated. Now I have decided I’ve definitely got diabetes and high blood pressure. I’m 31.

I don’t know how to rationalise this. I’m scared. Last night I cried for the first time since this began, in the bath, for my son who I feel may never know me.

Is anybody else feeling the same?

Can you talk to someone? Your health visitor or your GP?

You might have PND, your hormones are still all over the place, and it is important to ask for help.

Good luck.

Who measures your blood pressure? It sounds like you’re a classic target for white coat hypertension (blood pressure up when you’re stressed because a medical professional is measuring it!).

I’d call your gp on Monday for a chat. Feelings like this are quite common among new mums at the best of times and this isn’t the best of times. They might be able to help with your worries.