Oh fuck I've got the Rage

[CrystalDeCanter]

I'm so sad and angry and fucking ragey about this fucking virus.

My dh has lost his job due to this sodding shut down. This means we are now utterly skint and at risk of losing our home and having to move the kids from their lovely local school.

DH is in a massive depression and really really difficult to live with and I know it's not his fault but he's really hard to live with and it's SO hard to keep everything going on my own.

We live O/S (hence the posting time) and I was due to come home for the first time in 2 1/2 years and see my family in May but obv that is now not going to happen.

My brother in the UK has been ill with CV and I'm terrified that my parents will get sick - they are elderly and being careful but they live in a hot spot. I just want to see them and give them a hug and look after them. (I do realise that I am not alone in this, no one can see their family members and I feel for you all).

My lovely elderly and frail friend in now in hospital with this thing and I'm so sad for her and her elderly and frail husband who is trying to deal with this on his own.

It's all so bloody sad and scary. I watch the UK news in horror - I really must stop that. It's so shit.

Without us becoming ill we may easily lose everything we have work for years for. It's devastating.

Sorry for the whinge, I know so many people are dealing with this and so much worse. It's just getting to me today.

Omg deathraystare, I have the complete rage on behalf of those in the nightmare situation of having a loved one die. At least the only real effect for us is economic. I can't bear to think of those who have to deal with a loved one seriously ill or dying at this time. My heart goes out to them.

In our defence we were those smugos that did have savings to live off for a few months, but last year I got seriously ill and couldn't work for while. That really hammers ones savings pot.

Life eh?

I'm sorry for you situation OP. It is an extraordinary shit time.
From a practical level Australia is a good place to be in - Apply for every govt benefit you can get. Banks are being extremely cooperative re mortgages/debts. Take every bit of help offered - job seeker/keeper/FTB/rent assistance - You are the families /people the govt is trying to help.
Emotionally this pandemic is horrible for all but feels like a double punch for expats. It highlights the vulnerabilities and sheer heartache of having families spread across the globe.
You are bearing a heavy weight of being the supportive one in the relationship and having a broken heart not being near your other loved ones. Be kind to yourself, it's ok to not be ok all the time, your doing the best you can in extraordinarily fucked up times. 💐💐

It sounds like you want to stay, so just be happy you are not hitting nearly a 30,000 death toll, at some point in the future you will see your parents and all will be okay.

I imagine it is very hard for them having a child the other side of the world, no grandchildren to visit and managing somehow to rely on neighbours etc for food and help every week. Particularly as their son has been incredibly ill with CoVid it must be pretty horrendous.

@CrystalDeCanter we were UAE, not much options once your income stops and theres no way I could risk being in a country without health insurance with 2 young kids. Most people on the groups are the same.