If you are still working outside of the home, how are you feeling?

[TravellingSpoon]

Got 2 late shifts today this weekend and feeling beyond tired. I work in social care and it's so hard to be motivated at the moment, I hate how different work is. I have stopped watching the news and instead I am reading the graphs thread on here.

I am fine once I get in but I dread going in.

I have very mixed feelings about it. I work as a receptionist at a GPs surgery, so still v busy, just making telephone appointments 90% of the time rather than f2f.
For the most part, I’m happy. I enjoy my job, and only started a couple months ago. I like being able to help people in a small way and I like that I get to keep a sense of normalcy and routine. My DH is still working, long long hours, in agriculture (contractor not a farmer so even less time at home!) so I’m quite glad I’m not just sat at home on my own all day every day, as the weekends are long enough!
That being said, it grates on me that STAY AT HOME is being pounded into us from all angles and that seemingly renders everyone senseless that maybe I’m driving to work. Also, it’s hard having to stay home and not see family while still going to work, I literally drive past my in laws door and I can’t see them and that makes me sad. Plus as someone else upthread said, there’s a level of disconnect between me and, say, my sisters, one spends all day exercising (and instagramming) and baking (and instagramming), and the other paints all day every day. There’s no common ground right now, it’s strange. Plus tbh my family are being shit for staying in touch, I’ve spoken to my mother twice since this all started, so it’s just highlighting the (quite serious) pre existing flaws in relationships I think. The fact she keeps posting how much she misses us all is quite another thing, takes less time to actually text but whatever
On the whole, I’m happy, it’s just different.

I’m a hospital doctor - work in a lab so not front line. I’m very grateful to have a job and regular pay. I’m sometimes a bit jealous of all the baking, crocheting, garden activities I see on Facebook. But I also enjoy seeing my colleagues and my daily cycle commute. I’m dreading the hospital reopening it’s cancer services as I know we will be swamped so I’m catching up on admin and professional development while I can. I don’t really feel anxious about going to work - I’m pretty sure I’ve had the virus - I find going to the supermarket much more stressful.

Care home manager.
It's been a stressful four to five weeks and every time I think we might have turned a corner, something else happens-another member of staff goes off SI, another service user comes down with symptoms that may or may not be it, the staff hear something on the news and start to question what we are doing in the home-the guidance is not always that clear.
Aside from managing the practical aspects such as covering the rota, its hard work trying to keep staff morale up when they are scared and tired and we don't really know when it will end.

I'm still driven to go in because it's my job, and I feel very dedicated to making sure my team and my residents come through ok-but at the same time I'm bloody tired and when I see my friends on their socials sitting tanning in the garden and moaning about being a bit bored I feel nothing but jealous to be honest.

I go from being anxious to taking the viewpoint that this thing is here to stay and to just get on with it. I'm lucky to be able to still have a laugh at work in spite of the pressures and the sadness.

I dunno, its weird. I feel I should be positive because I know I am so lucky to have a secure job as so many right now don't, which must be terrifying. I am exhausted though, doing extra hours to help out, keeping on top of daily changes, trying to home school on my few days off. Its all a bit shit for everyone really, working or not

I am definitely glad for the change of scene, and I am glad that I have a wage coming in, and I am not on the front line which I am beyond grateful for. It's just so different. Our Unit is usually so busy, full of service users and always something going on. Its like a ghost town at the moment, everyone is isolated and the unit isnt full at all, only 7 bed already occupied. I think it's because it's so different that it what is upsetting, that it brings home how much life has changed so quickly.

And yes, lots of staff off so those of us who are left are doing extra hours and trying to juggle everything about.

I like the adult conversation. (DH doesn't count ). It's impossible to stick to social distancing, our desks are 1m apart and clinical staff are in and out, walking past. We have enough PPE though so that's good. The dc are enjoying being at school, it was just the two of them Thursday.

I'm fed up of people moaning about being home though, I wish I could stay home with the dc and ensure they're safe. DH is working too but is usually on his own.

I'm pleased to be able to do something to help.

It's really quiet where I am though and am hearing the same from other redeployed nhs staff all over.

I feel sad OP when I'm at work (school) because there are half a dozen kids in a classroom that should be packed! There is no hustle and bustle of school life. The school is eerily quiet. What a horrible, unsettling sad time this is. But I'm glad too to have conversations with other adults! And we do have a laugh, the staff room banter got me through in the past and I can't wait to be back in there again!

Mostly tired. Also finding it unreasonably annoying when furloughed friends whine about boredom, even though I would much rather be working than not!

Yes I would give anything to be furloughed ATM, it's hard juggling children, homeschooling and work.

Everything is just a bit shit for most people at the moment. I hope there is light at the end of the tunnel.