I need to dump some anxieties...

[LoisSangerAteMyHamster]

I’m feeling a utter, utter failure as a parent, child, spouse, employee and human being.

I am peri-menopausal and am suffering anxiety, anger and memory loss as it is. I turned down hormones recently as I didn’t want to deal with anything new during this off time. I think that may have been a mistake.

I can’t think, I can’t read, I can’t make decisions. I can spend all day staring at a computer and flitting between jobs and get nothing done.

I’m constantly angry and anxious. Internally angry. I can’t deal with a lot of things that seem to go with living with others during this time. I hate washing shopping. I can’t stand thinking about shopping or talking about it or wondering about it. My DH is into doing the bloody hunter gathering and is spending time and money getting it all together. But he is a mask, glove, wash the bread man. I would rather not bother and just wash my hands. But he has won and it’s making me stressed and tearful.

The tween doesn’t want to do much apart from doing everything with her friend online. She’ll cook with her friend online, do school with her friend online. She doesn’t want to do any exercise. I’m so worried that her muscles will waste away or something.
I feel utterly totally useless and I was just hanging on begire this.
This isn’t even about work, or my parents, or my relationship, or work, or money. That’s all going on too.

I can’t even cry.

Thanks for listening

I think a lot of people are feeling like this. It's really good your kid is keeping touch with friends - that's a big positive. I'd probably try and push the exercise a bit but I wouldn't worry too much.

Go easy on yourself. This is a shit time and everyone is struggling pretty much. J know I am.

I have totally adopted an "oh well" approach to as many things as possible. On good days I try my best to do as much work as I can in short bursts. If I see someone doing something annoying in the house or DS won't get off screens I just have to say oh well and move along somewhere else. I don't think anyone is going to be judged on their behaviour during this incredibly stressful time. Just try and look after yourself.

Thanks thaegum. The people I know are getting out of bed at a decent time, doing exercise carrying on as usual as much a possible. I’m a mess! I’m sorry you’re struggling too.

HRH2020 “oh well” is a good mantra, I will try it.

I feel exactly the same: could have written this myself.

No real advice other than that a huge people are feeling as you do and that it will pass.

thepeople oh I’m sorry. I don’t want anyone else to feel like this and I can’t see it passing. I need to do some CBT I know. But before I pack it all back in I just need to virtually pace around and stress.