I'm just so fucking scared.

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Sorry to do another thread, I'm sure there will be a million of these threads already all saying the same thing.
I'm just scared, terrified of all this. What's happening to our lives, our country, everything. I'm terrified one of us gets this and dies. We are a tiny family, it's just us really. To lose one if us would be so awful I can't even think about it.
I know a lot of people feel like me.
I'm sorry to start another depressing thread. I just had to get it out.
I'm scared, so very very scared. And I don't see how I feel ending till everyone is vaccinated against this and that'll take years.

If you were to catch it and you were to get really ill then your were to die would you really want your last few weeks/months to have been lived in misery & fear? How long do you think it is sustainable to be so scared?

In the nicest possible way, you’ve got this out of proportion. The chance of those under 20 dying is 1 in 100,000 or maybe less. If you’re under 40, you’re less likely to die of this than you are of dying in the next year.

The government’s message is out of all proportion to the risk for those over 50.

I've been waiting for a published study of blood serum levels of vit D3 versus patient outcome and the first one that I have seen is on the net and the results show a significant correlation. Bear in mind it is not peer reviewed and does not prove causality. But I will continue with this until science proves me wrong.

The study was done by a researcher called Alipio from the Philippines. He took the data from 212 covid patients and ranked their symptoms: mild, ordinary, severe, critical.

He statistically analysed the categories and blood serum levels: normal was defined as vitamin D3 less than 30ng/ml, insufficient was in the range 21–29ng/ml and deficient as less than 20ng/ml.

Here are his results:
mild symptoms = 86% had normal levels of D3, 1.3 % had insufficient levels of D3
ordinary symptom = 26% deficient, 44% insufficient
severe = 40% deficient, 29% insufficient
critical = 32% deficient, 26% insufficient, 2% normal

OK I hear you say, it could be because those patients already had underlying conditions which rendered them deficient in the first place. But this is significant data.

Study is here:
papers.ssrn.com/sol3/papers.cfm?abstract_id=3571484

Two things really stand out for me. This is a study of 212 Philippines nationals living in SE Asia. This is one of the BAME communities who have sadly disproportionatly died of covid in the UK:
www.theguardian.com/world/2...exerts-heavy-toll-on-filipino-community-in-uk

Meanwhile, there have been only 446 deaths in the Philippines, with a population of 110 million (they had their first case of covid on 30th January!).

Secondly, the UK government has said that they will keep all the scientific data secret until after the pandemic -

'Key scientific data and advice the UK government is using to guide its covid-19 response won’t be published until the pandemic ends. Documents used to make decisions and the minutes of meetings of the Scientific Advisory Group on Emergencies (SAGE) will only be made public when the current outbreak is brought under control, according to Patrick Vallance, the government’s chief scientific adviser.''

www.newscientist.com/articl...advice-wont-be-published-until-pandemic-ends/

I totally understand the anxiety bereavement can cause. After mum died I ended up on citalopram for anxiety, it was an awful time. I now manage my anxiety with st John's wort. I highly recommend it. I was thinking about taking vit D too. Be kind to yourself, this is not an easy time

As you acknowledge it does not show causation.

I've suffered from health anxiety for 12 years. This has set me off worse than the swine flu outbreak in 2009 :(

It will be fine overall. The virus isn’t going to get any worse. Life will go on for the statistical vast majority of people. The country will continue. In a few years everyone will mostly have forgotten about it

I hope so bacon. Won't that be nice, be at a time when all this us history. But I don't want to be wishing our lives away. We all need to live through this as best we can. Thank you for all answers here.