Trapped. Can't leave job because of coronavirus

[SoooTiredToday]

Feel so deflated today.

My job has totally changed because of cv-19. I'm in the NHS and have been re-deployed. I hate what I'm asked to do now. I have 2 roles and both have changed drastically. I can't expand as would be outing

I'd love to leave but I can't as there are no normal jobs in the NHS just now.No-one hiring obviously etc...

I hate my job now but I'm trapped.

To make it worse, my DCs school are making me feel guilty (not their fault they are lovely, but I feel guilty because they r so nice and...) about sending them in next week as there are no other kids in next week. But my job say I have to be there, so do DHs job (both key workers).

At the end of my tether. And it's going to be like this for ages.

Stop the world please, I want to get off.

Ps. I know I'm really lucky to have a job. Sorry if I'm sounding ungrateful. I just feel so flipping trapped in something I'm hating and feeling guilty for not keeping my kids at home next week and having to go to this crappy job :(

Sorry I have no advice on the job situation but could you try and get the kids to go to a different school with a few more kids attending from next week?

So sorry, I imagine there are other HCPs in similar-ish situations too. Is it worth calling the new NHS mental health support line just to vent? Even though yr situation possibly isn’t as challenging as that of many (although maybe it is and you’ve spare us a lot of detail) they should be prepared to listen and might have some strategies/thoughts?

Thanks zoflora, good suggestion. I'll email school and ask them if they'd like me to do that and how to do it

There are a lot of very unhappy people in the NHS at the moment and my trust certainly is not treating people well. Lots of unnecessary knee jerk redeployment which has led to wards being staffed by people who (quite rightly) don't have a clue and really really feel uncomfortable and unhappy being there. Services being left with nobody to sort.

I know a lot of people are considering leaving. But as you say, tricky time to find other work.

Are you frontline on a ward now? That's where people seem to be most unhappy. Redeployment training is being set out for many more weeks and we've all been saying that it feels like we won't be allowed back to our jobs, that the NHS will never return and people won't ever access health care again, the way the trust is dealing with it. If so, I'm out. Covid only NHS is not one I want to be part of.