Health anxiety really bad again

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I've suffered with it for years but it's getting really bad again. This situation certainly hasn't helped, nor has the fact that I'm currently 32 weeks' pregnant in the midst of it.
Every time the baby is quiet for a while I begin to tell myself she's died. A lot of my antenatal appts aren't happening - well, they are done over the phone. I personally don't think there's much point in them at all because what can be done over the phone? No BP measurement, no fundal height measurement, no urine testing, no listening in to baby.
My home birth has been cancelled so I'm meeting an Independent Midwife tomorrow. I am not willing to go to hospital to have the baby.
Everything is setting me off. Like just the tiniest health niggle and I catastrophise. The other day after sex I had the tiniest bit of blood when I wiped. My OH thinks it could well be from him as he's just had a catheter removed following spinal surgery.

...But once again I'm convinced I've got something terrible like cancer and that I'm going to die and leave my baby without a mummy.

Same here. I've suffered from health anxiety for 12 years :( all of this going on and me being on the frontline doesn't help either! I wish I could just sleep through it all.

Mine is reappearing too. I've been doing so well for a good while with it and now I'm pregnant and panicking. I had horrible pain under my rib over the weekend when breathing, it has eased and I've spoken to a doctor but I can't get it out of my head.

I guess we just have to try and keep strong and use our coping mechanisms best we can.

I'm exactly the same, 37 weeks tomorrow and I'm terrified. I'm asthmatic and called 111 a week ago on sat as I was convinced I had shortness of breath and a pain in my upper left shoulder. They said to isolate incase, that it could get covid. I had to cancel an appointment I had at the hospital the next day and mentioned to them that I had some swelling on my hands and a slight headache. They sent me to a+e, I had to go in via a pod where I was given a mask etc. They ran a load of tests and the dr didnt think that I had covid but couldnt confirm for definite unless I was admitted to a Ward. He was more concerned that it could be a blood clot so sent me home with blood thinners and to wait for a call for a scan. I've had the scan and that came back fine, had it the day after. Pau called me and asked me to go in for it and when I mentioned the potential covid they told me they didnt think i had it according to my notes from the dr and not to worry about a mask etc.

My asthma has flared up, I think with the stress of it all and not sleeping properly for over a week, so now I'm coughing. I'm concerned about going into hospital for my csection and still coughing. And the stress is really getting to me.