This basically. I already suffered from PTSD due to a very very extreme traumatizing event many years ago, and have suffered anxiety my whole life.
Before this I could work, and run household and it's effects were manageable.
I can't sleep, lost a stone can barely eat, had a period days ago where I kept bursting into tears, takes me hours to get out of bed and then everything is in slow motion and doing the slightest task takes serious serious effort. Need to go shops today but don't know how I'm going to do it. Doesn't help that I don't drive and single. I had symptoms (no idea if psychological) so feel I have to isolate from my DC so disinfecting everything is taking ages and terrified I'll contaminate them.
My family are helping a bit. DC are older and one is a teenager so had been making her own food. Younger one (10) has been at his dad's as I couldn't cope. Back today.
Need to cope and actually do things for them. No idea how to. I'm the worst mother just now.
It's like nothing I've ever experienced before. It's like my mind is literally shutting my body down. At best it's like wading through treacle.
Over 2 weeks like this. It can't go on. I feel so pathetic when there are brave NHS workers going out every day working shifts on the frontline and for me getting out of bed to do the dishes or take the bins out is a major achievement..
Why can't I get it together no matter how much I tell myself I have to??
Sorry for the self indulgent post. Wondering if anyone else is going through similar, or has knowledge about these things??