Went out for a walk this afternoon as strongly advised by GP and CPN - said my mental health will get worse and worse and so will physical if I stay indoors . I’ve got huge OCD issues and other stuff going on -
I’m getting all sorts of help via nhs very suddenly in that have open access to emergency CPN and now being told will receive a call from some sort of MH professional weekly too .
Live quite rural - back on to 20 miles of continuous fields but front onto housing estate of about 75-80 houses .
Walked down street, used foot to open garden gate, sanitised hands after locking the door etc and walked down the road down through field paths . Cat followed - my cat, not just a random one - rather sweetly . I didn’t contact anything outside except a couple of branches to move them out the way . Did take one photo on my phone . Didn’t go within 6-10m of anyone at all - there is no one around . Didn’t touch face .
Came back in and washed hands immediately, washed phone with dettol and now sat on sofa pleased I went out but worried . I didn’t wear a mask and I’m trying to not do anything else (e.g shower or wipe shoes and wash hoodie) - as apparently that’s not at all necessary .
I am 99% sure I’ve done all I can and I’m safe but that 1% is niggling at me and I’m so worried, I know there’s no way anyone can tell me I’m 100% fine but I’ve likely done all the right things haven’t I ... I just want all this to go away, so desperately , and not to be living in fear 24/7 .